Today was quite weird.. i tanked at the off guarded question my Poetry Professor asked more or less because i woke up 15 mins before class started, so at the moment i was just there but my mind didn't come in until a half hour after the question was posed.... Ahh at least ANdrew Jerome makes me happy ♥.. even thou he gave me the wrong reading assignment the other day..hahaha

so hanging around the coffee camp today i met an interesting fellow, Fred, who has 5 kids. He proceeding to tell me about his wife, who he's still madly in love with, and how they are in a rut right now. He was very friendly and i guess i have such an inviting face that draws people in and they want to stay around for awhile... who knows but yeah today was very interesting.. i got semi amount of homework done but not as much as i intended on getting done with my studies today.. now i'm back in my room from having dinner with Erik and Andrew which was pretty kick ass.. i'm loving school and the people that i've been coming in contact with in these past two weeks..... could i make this home?.....i don't know

As i sit here with one shoe on and the other off, pondering on how people formulate their opinions on illusions, to be so judgemental.. Don't get me wrong i try not to make assumptions until i have the whole truth or in some cases the facts... My roommate informed me about a little discussion that another friend of ours had about vegan/vegetarians at lunch yesterday and i came up in this debate. she couldn't fathom the idea on why a 9 year old would want to be a vegetarian or a vegan, referring to me but what she doesn't know is what you see of me is not what you'll get, I'm a illusion, i say this because when a person meets me for the first time they believe that i am around 18 to 20 but usually people are considerate and hike up my age to 22.. so i guess our friend thinks I'm around the age of 17 and i thank her for that... i would answer the question of vegetarians/vegans simply, a lot of kids do not enjoy eating meat growing up or just in general, some children are grotesque by the thought and others are scarred when they understood the correlation of life and death or maybe their parents are vegans/vegetarians themselves. There are many reasons why children become Vegetarians/vegans at an early age but sadly i wasn't one of those children, Jenna... i was an adult when i made the decision and i am very happy with the choice i made.

Ever feel as if you are lost within the space and time or even lost between the space and time of specks of snow flurries?

That's how i feel at the moment.. i know that's a strange way to look at it but if you understand what I'm getting at you'll understand my question. I've been a floater and i tend to forget why i am here... i know i truly want to become a better writer just like the greats before me and i know i am on my way since i do sometimes suffer from chronic despair which is essential to all writers or is it?.... Jonathan Culler believes the Author's life is very important to a text of writing where as Roland Barthes believes that the author isn't important it's more about the readers interpretation of their style of writing and how the reader interprets it.


but i agree that "life never does more than imitate the book, and the book itself is only a tissue of signs," ........ i speak in riddles that only i can possibly decode but do i really want you to decode me?..... life is more like mystery well to me that is and it's what you make it or in Barthes case, the connection of space and time...... so am i the space and time?


i wish i would have brought i heart huckabees dvd with me.. i need a little existentialism in my life right now

never meant.......

i don't know why I always set myself up for this or feel bad by an outcome.. why can't people grow up.. like seriously grow up.. i will never know and i will never know why i feel in the first place, not in general but why do i feel when you get me upset.. why do i even care i don't even like you like that but for some strange reason i always feel nausea.... man man man man.. tomorrow will be better....

just needed to get that off my chest.....

Back in school

SO I'm officially back in school and i find myself studying now at Plattsburgh State... yes my friends i finally went away to college...hahaha I'm loving it so far, my roommate is awesome, my suite mates are cool and my classes are amazing even thou i have quite a load on my hands... I'm taking 6 courses 5 which are English classes and 1 journalism class... So I'm going to be pretty busy this semester. umm what else is new... i just ordered a macbook pro and patiently awaiting its arrival.. YAY!!!! ummm i live an hour away from Montreal.. ummm I'm broke (well that's nothing new)... umm it just dawned on me that I've been out of school for 2 years... and i guess that is about it so far.. hopefully once i get my hands on my macbook i think you'll start hearing a lot from me plus i don't get the whole tumblr thing as yet well i get it but no one wants to follow any of my blogs hahaha i guess I'm not cool enough and plus my page never sticks to one topic except for my vegan recipe page other than that I'm all over the place but on here, blogspot, is where i can really let my hair down and say what ever i please and not care if the world is reading.. i guess... well i have tons and tons of material to read but I'll keep in touch more... haha

i thought i would call it home

such a fool........ i need to figure a lot out.. getting to old for this.....