Thursday, December 25, 2008

so these past hours...


I've been pretty depressing... it's horrible I'm so weak i went out and bought a pack of cigs... i did my best to buy a pack i never smoked before so i could be turned off by the uncomfortable taste that I'm usually accustomed to...

visiting my cousins early yesterday morning was unbearable i wanted to cut myself out of my skin and lay next to her.. to be with her one last time.. you know it's crazy... people say you can't pick your own family but she wanted me the first time she laid eyes on me and it feels good to know that you once had someone that wanted you for you, nothing more just you.. i was her baby and they were my family.. it just sucks that she went back home to Nigeria to rest and that's what she did...i love you and you will always be in my heart and every breath i take I'll be deeply devoted to you... i love you<3!

this would be the last time i saw her at Trice's baby shower..July 27th 2008....

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

i can't stop crying................

i miss my god mother<3!...............................

Friday, December 19, 2008

i want you, just exactly like i used to...


Damn those Kings of Leon boys did it again...that song sums up all the things I've been doing this week which i shouldn't but its something about you that keeps me wanting you....i don't know.. i enjoyed sending sexy half nude pics to you..just to give you a glimpse of what you've been missing these past several weeks we've been apart...haha I've become a slut when i said I'll stop my dirty ways but when I'm not i have nothing else to do to keep my mind of you... so i dedicate this song to you fool from my point of view and 'Id engager" as your point of view.. awesome songs and hopefully by next week I'll have my charts for the best tracks that graced my 2008 experience....

Thursday, December 18, 2008

you can't get enough.....

everyone says that i've been a loner and all i do is sit at home and read my books...hahaha but i love it... this months reading list so far has been amazing and i'm so excited to see what's in store for next month.. i don't know i'm just enjoying it... the way the words touch every part of your soul as you yearn for more, how your imagination seeps between those lines and its like you were the character all along... ahh i wait all day to read my night books when i've been sitting inside buses reading my day books.. i'm such a loser i know but i do know this january im going back to that radical bookstore to get that japanese war poems<3!.. i can't wait so here is my reading list for the month of December and i think im going to end with these books and start a anew in january.....

1. Alice Walker written by Evelyn White (if you are a big fan of Alice Walker's writings then you'll like this, the way Evelyn White uses historical events that shaped the writings of Alice Walker's non and professional writing career)

2. A Farewell to Arms written by Ernest Hemingway (this book is amazing if you enjoy war love stories with a shocking twist this is for you<3!.. i'm going to re read this one, this is one of my favorites)......

3. Girls, Vision and Everything written by Sarah Schulman ( A very different book from the rest of the list but a very inspirational for anyone trying to make it as an artist living in NYC, how history repeats itself...hahahaha)

4. Kafka on the shore written by Haruki Murakami (EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS BOOK..simply amazing and worth staying up all night to finish..plus its so good im naming my son after it..true story..lmao)

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Monday, December 1, 2008

think i'm a little bit in love with you.....

so i just hung out with my ex boyfriend Kevin and it felt as if 7 years wasn't all that long ago.. he is so chill like i remembered... To think i still thought about him all these years apart since we were forced to part because of situations such as being young and that he moved down south.... but yeah it was really good chilling with "the one that got away"...lol

hahaha he is texting me while im typing this but yeah this is so weird but not really i don't have any feelings at the moment which is just not like me so i guess this might be good for me..maybe... i guess... i don't know i'll see where this goes.... i just can't believe he has 17 month old son.. so am i ready to be a step mother before I'm a mother.. hahahaha very interesting

so today i went to the city and stopped by this radical bookstore and picked up my very own slingshot planner that i have been overly obsessing about since leaving florida.. YAY!.. i have to go back soon to pick up this book i caught my eyes on.. i wish i had more money but whatever another excuse to hang in the city but this time i could chill out there a little longer... i had a dentist appointment at 2 so i couldn't wonder for awhile... so sad being that today was an amazing day... I'm just glad i didn't have to go to work.. a week day to myself and a wonderful week day it was... i got to read my book in peace courtesy of my new Ipod.. thank you new friend<3!...

ooh before i forget ghetto black boys are rude especially when they are trying to "holla" at you.. hahaha give it a rest i would never want to "holla" at someone who approaches me with the lines "hold on one minute so i could talk to you" ha i would never stop for a guy like that.. come off smooth and just start with a "hi" and maybe i put maybe i might respond but i wont count on being interested.. hahahaha this is why i'm alone....lol

sooooooooo am i ready to have a boyfriend.. ahahaha he is a little naive but i think he figures i would make his llfe a little better.. which would suck because maybe i'm not ready to have a family started out for me you know... the kid isn't the problem I'm the problem.. i like being single in a way.. why can't we just cuddle and not think about labels for awhile.....

Sunday, November 30, 2008

YAY<3!....


i got an Ipod.. hahaha so late.. i should have bought the 16G but i didnt have enough but whatever i have an Ipod.. so i can finally drown people out when im in the bus... i can't read when ghetto ass people are yelling when they are sitting right next to each other...

Thanksgiving was a success my brother Ish was home and it was frickin AWESOME<3!... I finally experienced Black Friday.. i shopped til i dropped.. i got some clothes and Boots.. which is awesome and it was dirt cheap.. so hey economy i helped out... hahahaha.. blaah.. i'm so thankful i dont work at HT anymore because i wouldn't have been able to spend so freely.. hahahahaha

so now all i need is a macBOOK.....hmmmm

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

chopping season...

i chopped off my hair... AHHHHH!.. yeah i grew some balls and just did it.... so now im half way natural.. i couldn't cut the front because i wanted to braid it up but when i get my box braids i'll finish the job... it looked crazy today but hopefully it'll get better.... i can't wait till it grows out natural so i can do things with it... soon...

So Lugie is home.. it feels so good to have him home.. i've missed having conversations that didn't involve i've got to go study or i'm idle at the moment leave me a message and i'll try to get back to you.. hahaha even the phone conversations are weird....lol

Tomorrow we are heading to Virginia for the weekend well until saturday since Lookman has to leave sunday morning to head back to Syracuse.... doesn't matter in three more weeks he'll be back and we will be able to do things together and just chill i've missed my other half.... and tomorrow will be the first time Lookman meets Melo... this is going to be fun fun fun<3!.....

HAPPY TOFURKEY DAY<3!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

RIP AHKIM<3!

it's pretty unfortunate that someone so nice, smart, funny and just down to earth be taken from us waaay to soon. Ahkim was probably 24 or 25 years of age but he did beat the odds of any person with the sickle cell disease.. My heart goes out to his mother mrs Georgia and the rest of the Allen family.... it's just crazy how life works, he gets a better position for the Y which relocated him to florida and everything was going swell for him.. so sorry.. but thank you for being a great unit leader, and friend and thank you again for everything you've done for me especially noticing me and giving me a chance to step into your shoes.. you will be missed but never forgotten....RIP<3!.

Monday, November 10, 2008

sigur ros....

i wish i could be as beautiful like the way they play... i was watching a documentary about them and i think every part of my existence cried, laughed, died, lived, breathed, danced, smiled, loved, believed, soared, embraced, and soaked up every tiny note they played.... i wish i could make music in that way to make you live in every second of a beat..............

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Fest 7

The road trip there was so much fun me being the only girl with four chill dudes.. The boys smoked weed and i just slept (hey i was sick)...lol.. but i think what made the night is when we stopped at the south of the border and checked out Pedro's land....hahahaha the coolest thing ever.. i wish i had a picture to describe how bright it looked and how insane it was....lol The boys were on a never ending search for fireworks and got lucky when we hit Georgia only because unlike the south of the border in south Carolina this one was open..... we finally hit Florida and the first face i see is Dan Yemin (pronounced EE-min) ahh i'm in love with him.. Friday was so surreal i was just so excited to be in Florida that i didn't even check out the Flea market nor pick up a Fest 7 compilation.. i need to relax...lol.. Ate amazing Jamaican vegan tofu from Reggae shack .. mouth watering. The first night was just amazing with amazing bands Strike Anywhere, Less than Jake, bouncing souls they played the night away and Good luck in the early afternoon to start the party right... I ran into a lot of familiar faces such as Rob ( yeah creepy Rob from the reformation and now plays for Capitol?), Craig and Dave ( the boys i met when i was hanging with Dave from Maps).... Met cool people from all over the world and around the states like Mike from Scotland who became my partner in crime since we were staying at the same Hostel (boy do i miss him)... Justin (my roommate) and Andrew (road partner) from Rhode Island, John (another road partner) from Boston.... Danced all night and drank so much alcohol.. plus caught Paint it Black's U-haul show across the street from the Venue where kids were jumping off of the top of it while Dan sang to the growing crowd without a mic then the generator broke down and the kids just sang.. Dan Yemin began to crowd surf through the crowd while the kids sang their hearts out until the Cops on horses broke up the festivities.... This is where i ran in to a good friend from back home Barrie<3! . a great way to enter the fest..

Saturday it just got better after passing out from drunkenness the night before to be awaken by Justin telling me i need to get dress or i'll miss his house show performance.... waking up and waiting on line to use the bathroom because the boys from Spain were up and ready to party as well... took a quick bath because Justin felt i was being to much of a girl when i tried to attempt taming my knotty mess of hair due to the Strike Anywhere show... i told myself not to go insane when they played but i had a PBR (the choice of Beer of the Fest) and the next thing you know im sitting on stage and screaming into the mic while Thomas jumped around filled with energy.. ahhh i love those guys<3!.. well after i got my hair situation under control we headed to the Suburban Hose show where Justin was playing.. we got there early a little before 11 am and already we were drinking i had about two, Mike had about well more than me and Andrew took the cake with i think 6 Steel Lagers.. boy that kid can drink..hahaha Justin was the opening act and then others followed we didn't stay long but made a lot of friends by being there.. I really wanted to catch Laura Stevenson's set which i missed because we got lost.. so sad.. so we headed to the No Idea Sale so Mike could check out some stuff.. the free bin was awesome i got tons of music and a couple of vinyls.. the line was long and Andrew needed food so we all decided to meet at the Atom and his Package show which none of us got into due to the long line outside the Venue... Mellow Mushroom was a great way to go.. had some Pita's with Hummus and Andrew went with Pizza (doesn't that kid get enough being that he works at a pizza shop in RI).... Justin met us there and since the line at Atom and his package was insane we ended up getting in well after he played..... Watch some more music and once again ran into Dan Yemin so i decided to introduce myself again to him.. i told him the last time i saw him was at the Knitting factory show and he was thrilled..i know this because he took a double take and stopped counting to look me in the eye to shake my hand so i told him my name and we went our separate ways... i would have kissed him but i knew that would have a terrible mistake... hahaha Met up with John at common grounds shoot the shit with him his homie Julisus ( i know i spelled that wrong, from Chicago), Jen and John (i beleive that was their names but i do know he played in a good band from the area), their quiet friend which i didn't quite catch his name because he was so quite and Roger who i sort of fancied<3!....lol.. people jumping over the fence and common grounds because the line was to long to see Bridge and Tunnel and Young livers.. hahaha only at the Fest.. Running into Dan Yemin again him giving me the highest five ever and Austin Lucas for calling me sweetie and embracing me and hanging out with us at the house show earlier that day... But the best part of that experience is John's face when Dan Yemin and Austin Lucas showed me so much love.. He was amazed at my ability to get to know everyone in less than 24 hours.. hahahaha i love you John.. Thanx for John for helping me, Julisus, Goodwrench, John find that warehouse show... For us leaving for me wandering the streets of Gainesville at three in the morning, to losing my money at checkers and going with what i wanted in the first place Five Star Vegan Pizza.. YUM<3!....

Sunday was pretty slow but pretty chill.. Hung out with Mike and Brian who is from the New Jersey area... went to the Mother's Pud had a drink watched the Titans play.. and attempting to teach Mike about American football until this day he still doesn't get the point of it.. hahaha I adore you Mike<3!.... Tried to hit up the Flea Market but to my surprise it was closed.. awwww so i guess there is always next year... Just for the record Pita Pits was a horrible experience after walking waaaay out of my way to find it... whatever.... Hanging at the Hostel and getting to know one of the boys who actually lived there.. He was the coolest kid ever and i was a little smitten by him and our lovely conversation... i wish i would have caught your name so i could have taken it back to New York with me... Until we meet again... Pretty much my Gainesville Fest 7 experience was simply amazing cool people, yummie food, awesome music and my fuckin boys<3!.. i love you guys and i hope we can do this whole thing all over and over again until next year Florida<3!.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Get it out of your head.....

There are so many emotions are running through me but first i want to say i MADE IT!.. YAY!.. i'm 25 and life seems a little different... Start off fresh...........

Sunday, August 10, 2008

What are You Dylan in My House?.....



It amazes me in the choices that we choose in life. Did you every imagine yourself at this point in your life.. I feel like i should contact all the people that i left behind in my journey... I wouldn't have pictured my life like this.. feeling of content.. at peace with myself... even thou I'm a little nervous that i'm getting closer to being my own person... What do i do. Should i run out and buy some new clothes or grow out my hair.. to transform into a new me someone mature.. i'm afraid but a little anxious to go out in to the real world with real dramas and real love.... Ahhh i'm going to be 25.. that's really scary... lol

Well i'm on my way for something big i just need to keep my faith and it all will play out<3!.................

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Mello Mello.......

I can't wait to finally meet you.... i hope you look as beautiful as Trice<3!.... aww i can't wait..... I was so surprised that a lot of people showed up to the baby shower today, except for the older bros Spud and Dez...... i'm pretty bummed that my brother Ismaeel could not be here to celebrate his beautiful creation..... I wish the Navy could have flew him home for just one day i hope Trice can hold out for a few more days so he can be here with her<3!.. I LOVE my beautiful family<3!..............


Dez just walked in.....Niiice<3!.....

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

you never met me<3!...

An entry ooo my it feels like it's been forever... and it has so i really need to update you..... i'm working at the YMCA this summer and hopefully a position in the fall.... i still go to Queens and i'm through with Daniel.... A lot went down in the past few months that shouldn't have happened....All i can say is a precious life was lost.. what a shame...

I'm beginning to be and feel happy and i want to enjoy every bit of it.. I haven't been smitten by a guy in this way in a long time and i hope if nothing ever comes between us romantically that we will build an awesome friendship out of our hate for each other.. I enjoy work because of him... he'll be nameless until yeah or until i feel like spilling the beans.. hahaha

God bless....

i can't wait to meet my beautiful nephew.. any day now....

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

i just wanted to use the mac....

so I'm sitting in someones class but i didn't have a clue it was a class until i looked around and saw everyone doing the same program... i just wanted to use the mac.. I've become so use to it since not having a computer and being forced to harass lugie for his... i can't wait till i can afford my very own.. this summer...

spoke to Tania last night i haven't seen her in years and that's pretty sad since she is my first born and all... need to visit her soon<3!...

did horrible on my chem exam which sucks.. i woke up and felt like shit.. i got my period and a cold.. sucks to be me....
well bio in 45 minutes maybe i will get some sushi that always make feel a little bit better about my day...

i think i should leave before the professor figures out that i don't belong here...

until we meet again.. i adore you MAC<3!....lol

<3paix

Monday, April 28, 2008

Break....

i think last week was much needed.. i basically did absolutely nothing and i got to chill with my friends which was awesome... had a 420 party with scary movies, chilled in the city with Alison, lugie and Tokyo Police Club for Earth Day.. worked and did more of nothing... beautiful weather with beautiful people.. Alison, Cathy and I went to witches brew on saturday night ran into Malcolm who they swear is Gay..lol.. good times i adore my friends.. i can't wait to summer..

what a suckie day to return to suckie school... three more weeks left..YAY<3!


I adore them so much<33333333333333333!



<3paix

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

life....

just seems as if it is slipping through my hands at times... i wanna catch it but it's just way to quick for me to grasp... i wish i understood more i wished i love more.. i wish i learned more.. i wish i enjoyed more......i wish

spring brings home so much possibilities of what could come or what i have in store.....

they really make me happy<3333333!

<3paix

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

failing....

Bio at the moment.. I'm at a 60 which is a F but if i pull 100s on all my exams and finish all of my lab assignments i would be in the rankings of a B B-.... i know i can do it.... i eat pressure....

last night my cousin and his family arrived from England and they are pretty sweet.. my little cousins are so big and they ask a lot of questions.. which i don't mind much.. i like that they ask why and not just take your word for things... that's awesome...

i popped my g- string on my guitar so maybe this weekend I'll hit up guitar center....

Ahhh... about to finish up so chem hw and then work on my study sheet for my bio exam....

<3paix

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

homecoming....

i believe I'm becoming like Astrid the character in the novel White Oleander because i was a little jealous that i had to fight for attention to talk to Tilla.... i like her she's cool but that kid Lev likes her a lot to get with her.. i know I'm not sticking to her because i'm inlove with her culture.. i think i take a piece of everything with me especially the characters i read in my favorite novels.....

well i have a semi black eye... Slim made a mistake last night and hit me right in the corner of my eye hitting the corner where my nose forms with a hanger... ahh it hurt like hell and its all bruise now... its always fun and games until someone gets hurt.....so thanx slim thanx a whole lot....

my cousin and his family arrive today from London I'm pretty stoked.... so I'm going to finish typing my paper and maybe if I'm still up to it try to start doing my chem hw which i really should do because i have to start studying for my second exam in Bio... AHHHH

i can't wait to go to Paris.........

Thursday, March 20, 2008

it's U.S. not us....

well bio was a lot of fun even thou I've been finding the need not to attend.. I'm glad i did thou because i really don't need to fail and I'm becoming lazy and once again my weight seems like it is resulting..... i need to find a balance with myself so i can prosper...

I'm going to quit HT.. i emailed one of my professors about this music assistant gig.. which i believe will be beneficial to me.. i get at least 20 hours and its with bands i like.. one of them is Wilco.. that'll be exciting.. i need to meet new people and evolve because last night Joe made an excellent point... "we've worked here for three years and we're still part time".. that's just insane.. it never dawned on me that I'm never going to get the hours that i want nor more money if i continue to be a bottom feeder or just settle for whats given to me at the present moment.. i need to take life by the balls...

plus i need to get a new computer so i need to find something better.... I'll try to see if i could get half of the money for a mac and see if i could get a little help with the rest and then see if Alison could hook me up with something cheap and reliable.....

have to work tonight but the museum sounds like a plan tomorrow.. yay
so president bush stay away far away from me this time.. i really need to finish up my report...hahaha


oooh and i think i'll make tumblr.....

<3paix

Monday, March 17, 2008

i'm sleep on the balcony...

so Bio Lab was pretty productive.. i took my first practical and i bombed it... but whatever I'll do better next time.. i have a better idea on how he test and i never got the email that outlined the exam for this morning....

class was fun we dissected a crayfish and a nematode which was pretty sad but i apologized to them over and over and Sedfree and i had a proper burial for our fallen crayfish.. while the other boys picked on the live crayfish who was a little vicious little thing but all so cute<3!...hahahaha

my crush on Ruben is just what it is.. .just a crush.. hahaha i knew it....

well I'm really loving my Victoria secret bra its amazing the support and the way it shapes my body.... i don't know they cost a lot but they are well worth it.. i think i might get another one today and try and save up for another at the end of April so i wont max out my card.....

gotta work tonight so I'm going to finish up my lab work before i leave here...

i adore them<3333333!


<3paix

Thursday, February 28, 2008

sometimes....

i feel like i don't apply myself enough...
i try so hard but not hard enough....
life just gets so overwhelming and i never know what im doing anymore...
i love school and if i didn't i wouldn't be stressing myself to get As...

today pretty much sucked.. i studied so hard to be interrupted by a false alarm in the middle of our exam and now we are being punish because of that and because people were outside sharing answers...... what morons.. now we are going to be graded for what we did and get an even harder one in our lab classes which sucks because i have lab at 9 in the morning on mondays.. so this weekend i can't even party because i have to study all over again and get ready for his killer quiz.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!... i need to get an A or what's the use of being in school.....

<3paix

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

is this it?.....

ahhh I'm so tired.. i just had my chem exam and i hope i past i think i did well since i attempted all of the problems... i just wish i wasn't late and that i studyed a Little better than i did.... so tonight i have to finish studying for Bio because i have that exam on Thursday.. I'm so upset that i have to go to court tonight but i think I'm going to take my ass home after lecture because i am way to tired for this and i just need a nap...................

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

it's starting to look up...

i'm beginning to get everything i want which is great.. i got Daniel crawling at my feet.. yay.. i'm doing better in school... meeting new people.. starting to enjoy and embrace the whole college experience again.. the weather is getting better.. i got to spend the weekend with my niece and sister plus the new baby growing inside her... work is going.. i need to make more money but im trying to budget with the money i have.... my face is clearing up i just need to get a banging tan and i am back in the game...hahaha

so all i need now is a new guy to get to know.. i'm working on that... but this time he has to be atleast vegetarian.. meat eaters are way far more aggressive for me....

Bio in an hour and i'm going to go study for awhile and then gaze into professor french eyes all through his lectures.....

I'm so proud of Lugie.. he is such a great kid and he is having the time of his life in Japan.. i hope he embraces their culture and appreciates life a little more you're a lucky kid<3333333!...

<3paix

Sunday, February 17, 2008

how do you tell...

someone that you don't feel the same way for them anymore.....
i'm sorry it's to late to tell me... "i miss you"....

<3paix

Saturday, January 26, 2008

My bell jar....

has lifted.. i don't know what happened to me i was severly depressed.. i couldnt stop crying and all i wanted to do was end it all.... i wasn't myself and i dont ever want to be that person i was.... i dont know if it was my sickness on top of my period but it was horrible.. but when i woke up this morning i felt the dark cloud had passed and i'm me again.. thank god

<3paix

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

on going horrible scene.....

so school starts in a few days and i think i am ready... i know i need to do very well because my GPA is horrible at the moment.... it's insane that i was given the world and i destroyed it... i have to remember who i am doing this for.. myself.. my unsure feelings had gotten the best of me and it seemed as if i hit rock bottom when i was so sure i was on top... i began to destroy myself with poisons i said i was going avoid which found its way back into my life...

some days i wish i could just escape it all and just forget but something keeps me awake and this time i'm going to figure it out.. enjoy life....

<3paix

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Wish you were here

Daniel called today.. which is surprising. i didn't think i was ever going to hear from that kid since i told him i didnt want to have sex with him anymore..... it's strange..... i dont get it.. does he still like me or something... i just dont get it...... i adore the kid and i wish we could work it out but we have a lot of work to do if we are going to be with each other... i would like that but if he doesn't want to then i'm fine with that too... i just want to know so it wont seem like i am wasting my time.. waiting for him.... you know just let me know

ahh i'm too high for this thanx to joe<3! and smelling good guy a.k.a Matt<3!.... good time<3!.. Matt's pretty cool and i adore Joe<3 is just awesome.....
so now i'm just chilling and watching Stacey since she is trashed from a night of drinking with her co workers... i'm glad they called me because she would have been fucked.. she's not in good shape well she wasn't.. she's sleeping now and not puking all over my livingroom.. hahaha poor girl.... this is why i would rather be stoned than drunk anyday......lol

<3paix

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

a cup of coffee....

went for the training today at the champion learning center not knowing that i would have to pay 115 dollars for the background check and finger printed at another location.... so i guess I'm not going to do it.. i would if i were going to be an educator....

Daniel Daniel Daniel what goes through your head. So you only want to hang with me if there is going to be sex involved. You say you miss me, you want to kiss me and hold me but you also want to put your penis in me and where does that leave me..... feeling inadequate...... i love you and i want to someday have our love blossom to a little family but you don't want what i want so we shouldn't waste any more time.. find someone else to fuck because I'm tired of being FUCKED!.....

<3paix

Monday, January 14, 2008

here we go again.....

last week i felt compelled to call him so i did.... The conversation was weird but what do you expect that's Daniel for you... well anyway i just needed to get that call out of the way.. The reason for the intensity of this whole ordeal was that his picture fell from my wall days ago around 3 in the morning and the first thought in my mind was that i guess we are over, he fell off..... but when i awoken that morning to find that my picture also fell off the wall that night maybe a little after his, falling right on top of his.... they were stuck together and i thought what the hell does this mean.. are we trying to hold on to each other or something.. maybe that's why i can't get him off my mind at times.. I know break ups take time to heal but this is over processed in a way..i need to heal already... well any way he called last night because he wanted to chill with me.. thank god i didn't pick up when he called because between the 5 mins that passed he called another friend and decided to hang out with him instead.... so this buys me some time to get my thoughts together.... Honestly, i don't really want him to hang with me i really just want him to chase me around for awhile until i get tired not the other way around....blah

off to work.................HT that is..

<3paix

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

so i got it.....

im going to be a tutor for champion learning center..... i can't wait to start..
yay<3!....

<3paix

Thursday, January 3, 2008

so this is the new year..

and i do feel a little different.. this is the second day of jogging and im trying to eat right again..i was so healthy and i dont know what happened... i think the cigarette smoking or just bad habits.... well anyway i want to stay healthy for myself and for my future so everything else will follow........

<3paix