"Oh Man"

What am I searching for? I have a feeling, I'm missing the big picture of an inside joke. I'm pretty sure this is going somewhere. I hooked up with my recent ex-boyfriend yesterday, after being somewhat aggressive, spamming his inbox ha. Geez, I hope it's not my biological clock ticking... Is it true? Dirty thirty? ha I don't know but that's not cool. Tired. so tired. tons of work to complete and start. no sleep. why. really why. "To sleep, perhaps to dream." I can't wait for the semester to be over....

Tonight was a good night...I attended Wing Night and reunited with old friends. It was a good one and now, I can disappear again... It's funny because people around here thought I moved away.... ha sad ): oh Grad School, you consume my life....

Early today, I met up with Mai, Kai and Cody<3! I adore Cody but we never get any work done. Kai watched the New Girl on her laptop, Mai disappeared for a bit lol and Cody and I made jokes, but tried to relate it to the reading or an assignment ha! That kid... ha My Grad school buddies. I should make the best of it. This will be my last time, partying it up like a college girl.. ha blaaah

Ocean

I'm thirty since saturday, October 26. I can't believe it... I think when i apply myself, I look my age -___- thats pretty scary ha

SO i'm bummed, Halloween is tomorrow and I still have this ridiculous cold sore on the side of my mouth ): blaah my life. ha. wqaaah! It's like high school all over again ha

Rad news: I got accepted into Kappa Delta Pi, International honor society. Seems cool. I should learn how to take care of my nails. I need a manicure. My nails are growing beautifully, strong (: but they're getting too long -___- le sigh. I started taking Biotin a couple of days ago. My eyelashes are already pretty long and full, so i hope it adds volume. I should do some research to see if it has any adverse effects for those already blessed hahaha

Nothing new has happened but I did have a good birthday. I also feel my birthdays are becoming a pattern or a coincidence. Last year, I had a random hook-up and this year I might have repeated the act, but I hope this one will hang around. Amazing (:

I'm such a loser.

But Sad News: Lou Reed, don't leave me. Masturbation will never be the same again lol You'll be missed. And Still hot at 71, Great life kid (: Thank you for all the svveet-ass tunes (: You'll be here forever

Okay, I'm going to end it here.

"Storming the Death Star"- Roots Radics

It's been awhile. I know it's been awhile and I'm glad that i'm finally updating this blog. I've been through a lot since the last post. I'll just gloss over it with how I feel at the moment. Some things should stay in the past and some things just don't need to be brought up again.

Today, I feel fine. I'm getting well again. It was a struggle to find this sort of peace and I hope it lasts for awhile. I need to stop stressing myself out. School is school and if it stresses you out, take it easy. I know I want this and killing myself for it is not going to help me enjoy it when i achieve it.

I control my level of involvement. I control my level of involvement. I control my level of involvement.

Soocho Jade (it promotes protection) (: