"That's That"

I don't get it! I swear, I don't get it. I'm done chasing boys. I feel like i exerted too much energy in getting this kid to like me, to touch me, to want me, to lust over me, to sleep with me, to laugh with me, to dance with me, to be with me........

I've been trying something new.... getting to know someone on a deeper level but it doesn't seem to work for me... I'm not a good girl and playing the role of a good girl is hurting my confidence. I've never met a guy that wouldn't sleep with me. I've met a guy who refused to sleep with me again but it was different, he was still very affection towards me. He'd still take me drinking, still place me upon his arm, parade me in front of his friends and I too, gave it back to him. I could flirt with any guy of my choice but I knew at the end of the night, I was walking home with him, arms locked, total bliss.....

I keep feeling bad... I'm bad.... bad.... bad..... bad.... bad.... bad.... bad....