high and driving

okay i got offered my job back at hot topic with 8 bucks a hour pay and no less than 20- 23 hours but no more than 30 hours... so i don't know..should i take...i kinda said i would...but i really don't want to work at the mall anymore so blah.......

Daniel you suck... i can't do this anymore.. i don't want to.... i really don't understand you.... you throw me in a frickin' loop.... i wish it was just like old times..they were good times<3!...

i got through one day with a fag.. which is sweet.... thank you mother nature for the little bit of ganja<3! i have..... how i love thy...lol.

<3peace

friday is it over yet?!

today i gave myself a make over and i'm poor again.. i feel more confident and everyone is noticing.. yah i'm well on my way to hotness...now all i need to do is stop eating....lol blah

i got hair did and my eyebrows went a little shopping not that much since i had to pay a two hundred dollar phone bill..which sucked all that activation fees and month and a half charge crap.. but whatever i'm clean and good for the month...lol...

i got a sweatshirt from forever 21..i can't believe i could fit in a medium top... pretty sweet but anyway they have some good stuff maybe i need to go back there.. its really cute i wore it today and i just adored it.. but i still miss my hoodie>3.. I'm going to wear it today.....

ah yo tonight when Lugie, Ivy and I were leaving white castle some damn drunk idiot hit my car right in the parking lot.... i was reversing and i saw no car behind me so i stopped to shift the gear into drive and he smashes into my car fucking up his front bumper.... what a fuckin asshole and tried to say i hit him....if you see someone already in the motions of reversing you are supposed to wait until that person is done it's business ASSHOLE! ...how the hell can you miss a FRICKIN car backing up unless you were fucking drunk.... i should have called the cops but the damage on my car wasn't all that bad compared to his semi shattered bumper and hanging license.... ah i really didn't feel like dealing with it plus we were on our way to James new flat... pretty sweet... i got free weed in the end......lol.. so I'm good...

i can't believe old navy sold out on their jeans..... i need jeans... I'm done to my last one and they got destroyed but still manageable...blah i can't wait a month whyyy!... so i was trying on some pants that i saw and i couldn't fit in a 8 nor 10...which is weird because i wear a 10 in pants unless my hips got big.. yes yo i have thighs and a butt...where the hell did this come from....lol... horrible... but at least I'm getting smaller at the top.... hahaha... I'm going to bed i have to get up early to go running and for work...blah


<3peace

taker not a giver

So i got a D+ in anatomy.. how upsetting.. i just want to cry....and i was one question away from a C.... ahhh

i was a little upset and i needed some reassures from someone that i care so deeply for and he played me over the phone... that was so fucked up... it's like my dreams and hard work to succeed in life by doing something good and you don't even care... i know it's just a grade and i'll just have to work harder next time... shit you could have atleast humored me or sympathize with for me for awhile and try your hardest to make me smile like a great and caring boyfriend would.. i deserve so much more but i don't get why i'm sitting here taking this....

i hate my life!....

this is the last time

i feel so surreal right now.. i have no idea if i'm coming or going..blah

just took my anatomy lab exam and i hope i did well enough to keep my 80 average in that part of the class...i didn't study as well as i should of.. passing out last night and getting up not as early as i wanted to and trying to cram two systems in... but whatever it's up to the heavens now.....

so i'm pretty glad that i'll be getting home a little early so i can clean up that nasty room.. i woke up this morning with bite marks on my left arm so i really need to clean.. after that i'll probably take a nap and wait for lugie to get home so we could jog.. work on my english and try to get notes that will help me on my exam.. later wait for trice to get back and have a cool down run with her and work on my anatomy lecture for a bit.. try to go to bed early and get up early to review for anatomy lecture......i can do it....

it's pretty sad but this is my last days at nassau and i finally got a degree... I'VE GOT A DEGREE!!!!.....

<3peace

it's complicated being a wizard

so i'm a sucker because i do miss daniel and i do care about this kid a lot... and it only sucks sometimes... i called him a half an hour ago... because i've been thinking of this kid and i really do miss him. i haven't seen him months literally and we made 2 years a week ago...blah i bet he doesn't even know that...since we've been on off off on off off on on off....lol

well anyway i do miss him and i do want to work it out with him because he is just so perfect for me and i don't want to let him go.. i want to hold him close.. i miss him next to me...his warmth, his smell, his kisses<3...aww i fucking miss the bastard.......

but part of me wants to see other people but the other people i see just turn me off completely... i adore daniel and sometimes i forget to let him know because i'm so hot tempered at times but it's only because i love him?!...

<3peace

this is the last night in my body

why do i even bother calling... i'm pretty much wasting my time.......

....that blew up all over your thighs

ahh summer is in the air... and I'm looking forward to it.. i just have this feeling that it is going to be great.....

i really hope i get that basement i really really want it... it'll be sort of my own place but not really but it would still be sweet... my dad thinks I'm going to be sneaking guys over but come on.. who am I going to sneak in... everyone that they saw a month ago are the ones coming over... I'm not a whore okay.......
i just want my own and this is a step up until i find a real job and save up for my apartment...blah


I've been listening to a lot of Northstar.. how random but yeah i ordered it...blah

work today but at least I'm not closing... close to sweet....lol

Wake and Bake is sweeter than Cake<3!

school is over in two weeks and i can't wait.. i'm really thinking about moving back to Brooklyn.. maybe getting an apartment with Melissa and see how that goes.. i have the whole summer to think aboutit.. but i do know i'll be spending my summers in Brooklyn......blah

Daniel stood me up again.. i still don't get it... whatever...

I need to get that Northstar album....Is this Thing Loaded?....yes but i'm really excited.. i can't wait to my moneen cd comes in so i can dance around to "No better way..."... yay!

Happy

MAY DAY!