Ocean

I'm thirty since saturday, October 26. I can't believe it... I think when i apply myself, I look my age -___- thats pretty scary ha

SO i'm bummed, Halloween is tomorrow and I still have this ridiculous cold sore on the side of my mouth ): blaah my life. ha. wqaaah! It's like high school all over again ha

Rad news: I got accepted into Kappa Delta Pi, International honor society. Seems cool. I should learn how to take care of my nails. I need a manicure. My nails are growing beautifully, strong (: but they're getting too long -___- le sigh. I started taking Biotin a couple of days ago. My eyelashes are already pretty long and full, so i hope it adds volume. I should do some research to see if it has any adverse effects for those already blessed hahaha

Nothing new has happened but I did have a good birthday. I also feel my birthdays are becoming a pattern or a coincidence. Last year, I had a random hook-up and this year I might have repeated the act, but I hope this one will hang around. Amazing (:

I'm such a loser.

But Sad News: Lou Reed, don't leave me. Masturbation will never be the same again lol You'll be missed. And Still hot at 71, Great life kid (: Thank you for all the svveet-ass tunes (: You'll be here forever

Okay, I'm going to end it here.

"Storming the Death Star"- Roots Radics

It's been awhile. I know it's been awhile and I'm glad that i'm finally updating this blog. I've been through a lot since the last post. I'll just gloss over it with how I feel at the moment. Some things should stay in the past and some things just don't need to be brought up again.

Today, I feel fine. I'm getting well again. It was a struggle to find this sort of peace and I hope it lasts for awhile. I need to stop stressing myself out. School is school and if it stresses you out, take it easy. I know I want this and killing myself for it is not going to help me enjoy it when i achieve it.

I control my level of involvement. I control my level of involvement. I control my level of involvement.

Soocho Jade (it promotes protection) (:

I promise to be a nicer sleeper...

I'm awake, and I don't think i'll be sleeping anytime soon, le sigh. Maybe I should lie down again and see if it works. I will eventually. Today I looked at an apartment with Allison, and I'm excited. I hope we get it. I want it. I'm ready to move in now! A hidden gem. Music gives me peace. I wish I could find someone to play the music, I like listening to. I need to play more. SO i do hope i get that apartment, so ALlison and I can jam whenever we want all day/night long in our awesome duplex (: Living Room...

SUndays

I guess, I should post something. Something. I finally graduated from undergraduate studies. It was a long strange trip. mmm. I got an amp, and I've been having a lot of fun with it... .....This picture captures a Sunday.

Weird

is a word that sums up every relationship I have ever had with a virgo. I don't get it; I don't get them; I don't get myself. It's crazy. We just started this romance, and I feel like i've ruined everything. I'm an emotional wreck, and my unsteadiness could be rooted to my parents. I shouldn't blame them for all of my wrong-doings, but I feel this is the only way I can approach these inner demons with hopes of releasing them. For the first time, I felt jealousy. Maybe I felt it before this and never quite understood the strength of this attribute. It's not charming, and it will destroy a blooming relationship. I ruined it.........blaaaaaaah

maybe I'll give it space with hopes that whatever happened last night will just be a distant memory. I can't believe i ditched my boy. I was so high, and I let him down. I feel like a fool. A fool is what I feel like........

And don't forget to breathe...

I guess, I haven't truly understood that phrase until now. Last night, I think I learned so much about what I'm capable of taking and what I wanted out of this town. I'm ready for a new chapter and a place where I feel safe riding a bicycle at night.

Cycling is my life. I enjoy it so much, and I don't want to picture my life not doing so. But last night showed that cyclist need to be respected by the cars on the road. If you feel that we get in your way, kindly go around us. Don't throw liquids at us from the passager side of your window as you pass us by.

To the person who threw liquid at me: What if I would have crashed or hurt myself badly because of the shock. It isn't funny and things like that shouldn't happen. Why would you resort to such harmful behavior and endanger some one's life in the process. It's baffling. but you know what, I'm still pissed and I hope your car explodes with you trapped in it. I know it's fucked up for me to wish that upon anyone, but you deserve it for your stupidity and not caring for your fellowman especially on the road.

Anyway, I hear Amsterdam is cyclist friendly.

Shakespeare

Ha!

so i went to London for spring break, and i absolutely adored it. I adored it so much that I'm trying to finish up my masters in creative writing there. I also met a boy, but I'm starting to think he doesn't feel the same about me. He sends me poems and I send him my poems, but I'm think I've frighten him. Somethings never change-intense as ever. This post will not be all about him, so I'll stop here.

London was amazing! I've been networking, trying to get my poems published overseas. I had a lot to say about London the previous days, but I'm guessing I'm all talked out... I have to write some more poems for the class that allowed me to venture out over the Atlantic.

I really hope I haven't scared my poet away. I thought it was going well....... ha