pretty pissed..

i stayed up for nothing.....blah

while you were sleeping......

this time i know it's forever and this hurts so much... like why are you leaving me now after all we have been through.... you not picking up your phone and sending me to your voicemail without any answer..... did you find someone else did you wake up and say you had enough... please don't leave..please not now... wait until tomorrow.......

<3paix

i'm here to do some trees and smoke some blow....

i pretty much pulled an all nighter with Kristina.. watching Gordon's home made videos and laughing about the stupid things in our lives.. hahaha

yeah so its thanxgiving and i have nothing planned.. i was supposed to go dancing tonight but thats not going to happen since Nissa is heading to PA today.. soooooo what to do...

i might just play my guitar.. i think that's a plan.... ahhhhhh!

I HAVE NO LIFE....blah

<3paix

I'm so inlove today...

and i sort of want the world to know... ahhh I LOVE YOU DANIEL<33333!....

<3paix

give me a break...

was the title of my bulletin on myspace.. and i thought that was what i needed but maybe i need realization more.... so this past week has been rough emotionally and physically but mostly emotionally....

I'm not happy like i was maybe because i had no worries when i was younger.. and I'm getting older plus it's approaching very soon for me..... My 24Th birthday is on Friday and all i can remember is me mouthing off to my mother how pointless and miserable my life is, to have my whole world turned upside and taken from me.. like i was useless or a gain on someone else expense, which they thought it would be....

Just to let you fuckers know you picked the right person to steal from because i DON'T HAVE ANYTHING.. NO MONEY... NO FANCY CLOTHES, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING but an empty checking account.. so the jokes on you because i hope you are as dump as you are for stealing my wallet and my new cellphone, (that wont help you either because Verizon doesn't use Sim cards so my phone is a waste), to use my check card again so you'll be arrested and I'm DEFIANTLY going to press charges since i meant nothing to you but a free ride.... ASSHOLE/S!.....

In any case last night wasn't a complete waste... Lugie and I made it to the Kevin Devine show which was amazing and a little uplifting..Being back in my hometown of Brooklyn<333!, a few blocks away from our old stomping grounds... Lugie and Monty are insane for doing the SOuji boy SUPERMAN dance on stage before Kevin's set.. hahaha... Seeing Brian Bonz again after so many yeeeeaaarsss..that was pretty sweet.. hahaha.... it was great to be in the presence of old friends....AND I LOVE ALL OF MY NEW FRIENDS<333!... maybe i didn't appreciate you guys enough for being there for me when i felt that i was all alone.....so here is to you guys<3333!.....CHEERS<3!!!!

so let's try this again...i think 24 wont be all that bad since 23 sucked in the closing...hahaha.....

<3paix

i figured it out....

why writers write and Poets poetess...
so they could share their lives with us.....
And remember they once were here....
amazing<3!

i wish i were a poet...

<3paix

Paris....

i'm really giving this some thought.. i think i really want to study in France....

Chemistry is giving me a run for my money.. it's like when i think i had a grasp on it, it tells me other wise.. maybe i'm seriously not cut out for this.. i would love to go to medical school but i wont be going with a horrible gpa... i thought if i continue to study and work hard on it i'll pass but its an on going thing.. i have to really want it... i dont think i really want it anymore.. i don't know.. i don't really need this class to bring down my GPA....

I think i want to change my major from English and Chemistry to English and French.... if i take three classes in French i can be considered to further my studies in Paris.. which i sort of want to do at this time.. i want to leave for awhile and see how it is... and if i don't like it which i'll doubt i'll come home...

<3peace