sigur ros....

i wish i could be as beautiful like the way they play... i was watching a documentary about them and i think every part of my existence cried, laughed, died, lived, breathed, danced, smiled, loved, believed, soared, embraced, and soaked up every tiny note they played.... i wish i could make music in that way to make you live in every second of a beat..............

Fest 7

The road trip there was so much fun me being the only girl with four chill dudes.. The boys smoked weed and i just slept (hey i was sick)...lol.. but i think what made the night is when we stopped at the south of the border and checked out Pedro's land....hahahaha the coolest thing ever.. i wish i had a picture to describe how bright it looked and how insane it was....lol The boys were on a never ending search for fireworks and got lucky when we hit Georgia only because unlike the south of the border in south Carolina this one was open..... we finally hit Florida and the first face i see is Dan Yemin (pronounced EE-min) ahh i'm in love with him.. Friday was so surreal i was just so excited to be in Florida that i didn't even check out the Flea market nor pick up a Fest 7 compilation.. i need to relax...lol.. Ate amazing Jamaican vegan tofu from Reggae shack .. mouth watering. The first night was just amazing with amazing bands Strike Anywhere, Less than Jake, bouncing souls they played the night away and Good luck in the early afternoon to start the party right... I ran into a lot of familiar faces such as Rob ( yeah creepy Rob from the reformation and now plays for Capitol?), Craig and Dave ( the boys i met when i was hanging with Dave from Maps).... Met cool people from all over the world and around the states like Mike from Scotland who became my partner in crime since we were staying at the same Hostel (boy do i miss him)... Justin (my roommate) and Andrew (road partner) from Rhode Island, John (another road partner) from Boston.... Danced all night and drank so much alcohol.. plus caught Paint it Black's U-haul show across the street from the Venue where kids were jumping off of the top of it while Dan sang to the growing crowd without a mic then the generator broke down and the kids just sang.. Dan Yemin began to crowd surf through the crowd while the kids sang their hearts out until the Cops on horses broke up the festivities.... This is where i ran in to a good friend from back home Barrie<3! . a great way to enter the fest..

Saturday it just got better after passing out from drunkenness the night before to be awaken by Justin telling me i need to get dress or i'll miss his house show performance.... waking up and waiting on line to use the bathroom because the boys from Spain were up and ready to party as well... took a quick bath because Justin felt i was being to much of a girl when i tried to attempt taming my knotty mess of hair due to the Strike Anywhere show... i told myself not to go insane when they played but i had a PBR (the choice of Beer of the Fest) and the next thing you know im sitting on stage and screaming into the mic while Thomas jumped around filled with energy.. ahhh i love those guys<3!.. well after i got my hair situation under control we headed to the Suburban Hose show where Justin was playing.. we got there early a little before 11 am and already we were drinking i had about two, Mike had about well more than me and Andrew took the cake with i think 6 Steel Lagers.. boy that kid can drink..hahaha Justin was the opening act and then others followed we didn't stay long but made a lot of friends by being there.. I really wanted to catch Laura Stevenson's set which i missed because we got lost.. so sad.. so we headed to the No Idea Sale so Mike could check out some stuff.. the free bin was awesome i got tons of music and a couple of vinyls.. the line was long and Andrew needed food so we all decided to meet at the Atom and his Package show which none of us got into due to the long line outside the Venue... Mellow Mushroom was a great way to go.. had some Pita's with Hummus and Andrew went with Pizza (doesn't that kid get enough being that he works at a pizza shop in RI).... Justin met us there and since the line at Atom and his package was insane we ended up getting in well after he played..... Watch some more music and once again ran into Dan Yemin so i decided to introduce myself again to him.. i told him the last time i saw him was at the Knitting factory show and he was thrilled..i know this because he took a double take and stopped counting to look me in the eye to shake my hand so i told him my name and we went our separate ways... i would have kissed him but i knew that would have a terrible mistake... hahaha Met up with John at common grounds shoot the shit with him his homie Julisus ( i know i spelled that wrong, from Chicago), Jen and John (i beleive that was their names but i do know he played in a good band from the area), their quiet friend which i didn't quite catch his name because he was so quite and Roger who i sort of fancied<3!....lol.. people jumping over the fence and common grounds because the line was to long to see Bridge and Tunnel and Young livers.. hahaha only at the Fest.. Running into Dan Yemin again him giving me the highest five ever and Austin Lucas for calling me sweetie and embracing me and hanging out with us at the house show earlier that day... But the best part of that experience is John's face when Dan Yemin and Austin Lucas showed me so much love.. He was amazed at my ability to get to know everyone in less than 24 hours.. hahahaha i love you John.. Thanx for John for helping me, Julisus, Goodwrench, John find that warehouse show... For us leaving for me wandering the streets of Gainesville at three in the morning, to losing my money at checkers and going with what i wanted in the first place Five Star Vegan Pizza.. YUM<3!....

Sunday was pretty slow but pretty chill.. Hung out with Mike and Brian who is from the New Jersey area... went to the Mother's Pud had a drink watched the Titans play.. and attempting to teach Mike about American football until this day he still doesn't get the point of it.. hahaha I adore you Mike<3!.... Tried to hit up the Flea Market but to my surprise it was closed.. awwww so i guess there is always next year... Just for the record Pita Pits was a horrible experience after walking waaaay out of my way to find it... whatever.... Hanging at the Hostel and getting to know one of the boys who actually lived there.. He was the coolest kid ever and i was a little smitten by him and our lovely conversation... i wish i would have caught your name so i could have taken it back to New York with me... Until we meet again... Pretty much my Gainesville Fest 7 experience was simply amazing cool people, yummie food, awesome music and my fuckin boys<3!.. i love you guys and i hope we can do this whole thing all over and over again until next year Florida<3!.

Get it out of your head.....

There are so many emotions are running through me but first i want to say i MADE IT!.. YAY!.. i'm 25 and life seems a little different... Start off fresh...........

What are You Dylan in My House?.....

It amazes me in the choices that we choose in life. Did you every imagine yourself at this point in your life.. I feel like i should contact all the people that i left behind in my journey... I wouldn't have pictured my life like this.. feeling of content.. at peace with myself... even thou I'm a little nervous that i'm getting closer to being my own person... What do i do. Should i run out and buy some new clothes or grow out my hair.. to transform into a new me someone mature.. i'm afraid but a little anxious to go out in to the real world with real dramas and real love.... Ahhh i'm going to be 25.. that's really scary... lol

Well i'm on my way for something big i just need to keep my faith and it all will play out<3!.................

Mello Mello.......

I can't wait to finally meet you.... i hope you look as beautiful as Trice<3!.... aww i can't wait..... I was so surprised that a lot of people showed up to the baby shower today, except for the older bros Spud and Dez...... i'm pretty bummed that my brother Ismaeel could not be here to celebrate his beautiful creation..... I wish the Navy could have flew him home for just one day i hope Trice can hold out for a few more days so he can be here with her<3!.. I LOVE my beautiful family<3!..............


Dez just walked in.....Niiice<3!.....

you never met me<3!...

An entry ooo my it feels like it's been forever... and it has so i really need to update you..... i'm working at the YMCA this summer and hopefully a position in the fall.... i still go to Queens and i'm through with Daniel.... A lot went down in the past few months that shouldn't have happened....All i can say is a precious life was lost.. what a shame...

I'm beginning to be and feel happy and i want to enjoy every bit of it.. I haven't been smitten by a guy in this way in a long time and i hope if nothing ever comes between us romantically that we will build an awesome friendship out of our hate for each other.. I enjoy work because of him... he'll be nameless until yeah or until i feel like spilling the beans.. hahaha

God bless....

i can't wait to meet my beautiful nephew.. any day now....

i just wanted to use the mac....

so I'm sitting in someones class but i didn't have a clue it was a class until i looked around and saw everyone doing the same program... i just wanted to use the mac.. I've become so use to it since not having a computer and being forced to harass lugie for his... i can't wait till i can afford my very own.. this summer...

spoke to Tania last night i haven't seen her in years and that's pretty sad since she is my first born and all... need to visit her soon<3!...

did horrible on my chem exam which sucks.. i woke up and felt like shit.. i got my period and a cold.. sucks to be me....
well bio in 45 minutes maybe i will get some sushi that always make feel a little bit better about my day...

i think i should leave before the professor figures out that i don't belong here...

until we meet again.. i adore you MAC<3!....lol

<3paix