Abbie Road

Back to school

2012-01-28T20:30:00.004-05:00

So in a way, I'm glad that the world is back in Plattsburgh again. I've been a walking zombie, but not brain dead more like brain resting. I've been hanging around with the locals and getting to know the few friends that i've made here thus far. Seeing familiar faces with hopes of hanging out is comforting.

I've text Maxwell twice this year, and I'm hoping that the interactions between us will get even smaller. It's not like i have bad feelings towards him. It's just i don't want to think about him anymore...

I've been in work all day today since 11 am, and i won't leave here until midnight or maybe a little bit before that. I haven't decided.

I've been woking out and eating a lot of food, sadly. I feel as if i gained more weight than i was before. I can't wait to be busy with no time to eat, and when i have time to eat, i'll be thankful for a meal. blaaah....

oh and i've been avoiding the outcome of becoming a pothead. Don't get me wrong. I smoked all break, and i had fun, but now it's time to get it together. I graduate in May, which is awesome, and i can't wait! YAY!!

Too bad i wasn't able to write anything. I'm hoping that i'll be writing soon since school is in season.....boo to school but yay to new hopes.......

I Don't Wanna Fuck With Another Dude's Snacks

2011-12-17T02:04:00.004-05:00

AH! Today was a great day... I hung out with different people, which is a first for me in a long time due to school.

Man, hanging out with Maxwell was awesome. Matt P came over, and we jammed. If only we could play along with each other instead of in our own worlds. Ha! We sounded pretty rad, though. It was good being around Max and playing music. Since we stopped fooling around, it's been really weird. Ha! or maybe it's just me.. I do get pretty weird at times.

So school is out for the Winter break, and I am very excited. I can get up when i want to, and read what I want without having to write a paper in the end. Life is going to be sweet for six weeks. Plus, I got a JOB!!! Y AY! I'll be the new cashier, counter person, salad and sandwich prep-per...etc. I'm looking forward to it. Two days a week and an income to pay my rent. I hope this winter break is fun, and I can't wait to see my family for a few days the weekend of New Year's.......

oh and listen to your Dads..... they know what they're talking about........

Taking an interest in what i'm afriad of....

2011-11-08T23:40:00.005-05:00

I had a boyfriend, and then i loss him... man.... I can't even keep a man. What's wrong with me? It's not like he was the greatest kid in the world, but he was a step up from what I've been used to. It hurts a lot, but in a way, I don't even feel a thing. I put way to much negative energy and energy, in general, into it that I destroyed the beauty of it. I sort of miss him, or I sort of miss being or lying next to someone. Plus, he was extremely sweet, so I guess I should stop texting him. He's not coming back, and I need to move on.......

In other news, i have my laptop back, which is awesome. I can listen to awesome music again. For example, Wavelets...... I'm in love......

my soul is at ease...speakeasie

Vitality

2011-10-27T11:20:00.004-04:00

Ahhh! I'm 28... wow! crazy, i know. Well let me fill you in since a lot has happened since my last entry. I'll start off with the birthday, and then work my way to the past, and then pass the present to my hopes for the future.

My birthday was sooo much fun yesterday. I got all dressed up, and the older generation really enjoyed it. It was if i brought them back in time, a place where they felt mostly alive.. ha maybe not but it's nice to think so....

Yeah, my housemates and I checked out the Firefighter Haunted House, and it was a haunting. I FRICKIN' LOVED IT! so good. It was like all the horrific things in my mind, brought to life. INSANE! and the clowns.... you know how i feel about them, but yet I can't turn away from them. ha! I was sooo baaked too; it was great. I got this budd called Julius Caesar and my is it strong, just like the man...lol and I took some G-shots at Suleika's. I adore her. Speaking of Suleika, I sort of made-out with her brother, Rey..lol well not really but the corner of our lips touched (: lol It was nice though...lol

ummm.... yeah, Max and I broke up last Sunday, and I miss him so much... Seeing him yesterday at 67 made me so nervous and did I tell you I was pretty baaked...lol yeah, I wish he would have stopped over my house before he headed home for the night... I really want him back ):

OOOO in other news, I'm so in love with Tiffany roommate's kitten, Chocolate. She is frickin adorable, and she's a little hand slut. This kid Max (yeah too many Maxwells in Plattsburgh) and I were feeling her up and she loved it; she was in total ecstasy; it was great...lol I don't know but Max started to get a little frisky and wanted a little of this chocolate..ha! but yeah, my heart belongs to only one Maxwell, and he isn't him..awe blaaah lol...

well anywayz, I'm 28 and single ): at the moment, but it may change again...lol

Blacking Out The Friction

2011-10-10T20:39:00.003-04:00

Ahhh! man, where should i begin..maybe at the beginning. So over the summer i loss one of my best friends. yeah, it's pretty unfortunate that I'll never see that beautiful face and hear that sweet sound leaving such an intelligent person again. I fucking miss you, Alison, and I always will.... But I'm recovering somewhat and I also have a feeling that you are the reason why i have Maxwell. I love him so much. He's the sweetest and sexiest person that i have ever met, and all I want to do is crawl right under him. ah magical.

School sucks! i do the bare minimum , which is terrible in my standards, but I do know, when I get my terrible grades from this semester, I'll probably hate myself, like a lot. blaaah

I'm still a little baaked from chilling with James. It was so much fun; we played 1,000 weed games and that game is pure genius so much fun! I wish there was a television in this mailroom so i could watch Bored To Death.....

Wayne Coyne

2011-04-24T20:30:00.003-04:00

You are the Gawd of my heart. Thank you♥!

When You Smile

2011-04-24T20:17:00.004-04:00

Last night, I had an amazing dream but i can't remember the details nor how it came about so for the record it was much needed. I dreamt that I was with a loving person and he loved me so very much for the kiss he left imprinted on my right thigh was a sure sign. I sat conversing with someone else when he took me by surprise and kiss the delicate top of my exposed skin. It was so powerful that my heart began to pound inside of my confined chest. It felt amazing and much needed. I haven't felt that much intensity since being with Daniel. I feel as if I am at a better place at the moment and I know I still have some healing to do.... I thought I would share this with you guys.

Badonka Donkey

2011-04-20T23:14:00.005-04:00

It's that time again, you know, the part where i need to get my life together. I don't know. I feel like I'm slipping into depression and if I don't get a hold of it soon; It will be a depression. I need some inspiration a glimpse of something or possibly something to keep me inspired... I've been so stress due to my crazy ex-roommate, moving out, school, life, being uninspired. In other words, I need some awesome music to pull me through or a handsome kid to keep me strong... blaah something exciting needs to happen.......

first entry of the year...

2011-01-03T20:12:00.002-05:00

I'm in the mist of a metamorphoses, i deleted my facebook (well deactivated it) and i don't know. My plan is to do this year a lot different and a little better than i did the one before. I know what i want, at the moment, and i know what i miss but I'm not going to allow those things that i miss to consume my life, again. I got myself an apartment and a new roommate and i hope it all goes well. I also want to do excellent in school (last semester was pretty tough). I added an extra year with plans on working on my writing. I'm excited! I'm heading back to Plattsburgh this Wednesday and I'm looking forward to it (yeah, i know..ha!).

I truly feel bad that I've been annoyed to the point where i have been snapping at my mother. I need to work on that. I have to accept the fact that i wont have the mother that i used to have before she got sick. She's emotional. I'm emotional. There's just too much emotions going around and it's really starting to take a toll on my well-being and i'm pretty sure on her's as well.

Another thing that i want to work on is, finding a job where i can save and be the adult that i should be (I'm 27 and not getting any younger). I pray that i find a job. That's my only fall back that I can think of, at the moment. I need money and lots of it or just enough to live comfortably. I also need to get back in shape and stay in shape...

And pretty much I'm going to take this year a lot slower so i can enjoy it a lot more......

Breakneck Speed

2010-11-06T10:37:00.002-04:00

It's sad when you know that your roommate is avoiding you. But it's even worse when you don't know the reason. I shouldn't care so much but it just hurts to know that someone who sleeps so close could be so dangerous. I'm moving out in december and she probably wont know of this until that day.

I'm so over dorm life. I need to start my life. Find a job in the process so i'll be financially stable for awhile and able to save for the next adventure in life. I'm a little nervous. I don't have much saved up but i might have enough for a deposit if i decide not to go home for thanksgiving. I need a J-O-B, like fast!..

I can't wait to live on my own. It's about time, you know.

Her name is Jenn

2010-11-03T17:24:00.002-04:00

So i have a new friend. I don't know what to make of her yet but i do know i sort of like her. We met at a mutal friend's place and then i ran in to her at the Koffee Kat today as we sat and talked awhile. I don't know man i like her. She seems like me a free spirit from Montana even thou i'm not from Montana but i am a free spirit.

She's a virgo. What is up with me and Virgos and she with Scorpios; she has many of them as friends. So we're going to hang out next wednesday night and i'm really looking forward to it. Once again I don't know but i really like her. Ha! yeah so i guess it's alright since i made a decision to stay here for another year... gives me sometime to get my shit togther....

On the other side....

2010-10-10T19:30:00.004-04:00

Man, Johnny why did you have to leave so soon... i never got to say bye or ask how you were. It just breaks my heart to know that i won't be able to have that chance. I don't know how to take this, how to process it... it feels so unreal and i don't want to believe it... sorry... you didn't have to go out like that... i'm so angry! so very angry... you were an awesome person and i will never forget all the fun times we shared.... i can't believe that you've left us.. all the people you've touched in such a short time... rip friend... i'm going to miss knowing you're around... i love you old friend and i miss you already♥!..never forgotten always remembered♥!..r.i.p Johnny aka Puff♥!.....

Leech Mansion

2010-10-02T01:15:00.004-04:00

It's really sad to hear that someone dies, especially way to young, and to find out that he was a fellow cyclists.

I wish i could have met you, everyone seems genuinely touched by you in such a short time. I guess we'll make it up when we meet again. Ride safe wherever you are, Bryan<3!

new years eve(l)

2010-09-23T19:15:00.003-04:00

so once again i find myself engulfed in self pity it seems to sort of come off natural nowadays. What am i doing? i'm so baffled about everything i wish i could just run away just for a little while you know. Just to get out of my head........ i need to read something uplifting i've lost my mind.....

Storms...

2010-09-10T08:17:00.003-04:00

So today will be another cut day for me... I don't know why i feel this way well i sort of know why because i also get this way when the weather changes. my moods are sort of connected, with its highs and lows and lows and even lower. I should at least go to French class today but I'm not motivated at all....

I'm a little sick and i guess drained out this is week two and i already feel like its the middle of the semester, i started out strong and took on so many things and i guess its safe to say that I'm not as young as i used to be.. i need to prioritize... I'm glad i was cut from the school's softball team... it demanded too much of me.....

I'll give myself today and yesterday but Monday i have to be well rested and back on that daily grind.. it's to early in the semester to have an episode........

"even soldiers catch their breath"......

Cast Spells

2010-08-27T00:28:00.003-04:00

Man, my summer is ending well.. i think, personally it's going to be a good semester.... friends wise and hopefully school wise as well...lol

Man, Dave Davidson you are a very talented human being... And i don't understand why you talk to me?.. ha i don't know, i'm not nearly as fascinating as you. Ha i guess thanx for seeing... me.... blaah!

"And i'll be carrying flowers, like a soldier holds a gun"....

Back in da Hood.....

2010-08-25T05:23:00.007-04:00

Man, i never thought i'd say this... It feels good to be back in Hood Hall... rip 88 Broad and summer '10. you were fun, at times... but I'm so over it. I can honestly say that I'm looking forward to fall semester. I need to look into scholarships, man, college is becoming expansive.. ha and i need to find a job.... asap.

Our room is coming along and this time i decided to organize my clothes.. why do i have so much clothes?!.. it's unnecessary, i tell you, I need to sell.. i could use the money and the space.....

baaked....

In that note, i would like to welcome fall semester '10..This is make it or break it so I'm going to have to kick some ass... i got this, i got this..blaah.

haters...

2010-08-23T05:05:00.004-04:00

the world is full of them man, and i am one to talk... but Wilber is always shitting on Apple..he can't appreciate the beauty of technology ha... man i want an iPad. Trice has one and it's hottt, plus it would fit perfectly in my life...

it's funny on how I wish i to go back to when i was younger the time where i wished to be grown... fun times man... when there were no worries and only great times.. good ol' Brooklyn; life in Fort Greene... wouldn't trade it in for the world.... Listening to wu-tang just makes me want to go back ha.. it's been awhile man...

so on Tuesday before noon i need to be out of this apartment.. I'm pretty psyched about moving back in to the dorms i just hate doing the packing and repacking thing. this past year i've literally been trapped in the limbo. so I'm looking forward to be consistently in one place for awhile.. to get my self situated and away from life of uncertainty.. I am ready to find my true self.... blaaaaah

i need to do more lengthy post, i never want to elaborate my thoughts or express my feelings...it would help me stay out of my head you know. Give myself a break and see the whole picture instead of what i believe have importance. So I'm trying out for the softball team... i should start running so i wont embarrass myself at try-outs.... i got this.. well i'm a little afraid since its been a long time since I've played. so I'm extremely rusty. so this is going to be fun ha blaah i just i got to not psyche myself out... The worst thing they can say is we don't need you.. ha devastating. Well it is what it is man... i hope they don't drug test me ha yeah i would definitely fail.. that would suck man......

"raw like cocaine straight from Boliva"....

We lack science...

2010-08-16T03:26:00.003-04:00

so this time home has once again been an experience on so many levels but I'm glad that I'm leaving off, thankfully on top of them.. ha! I can't believe that I'm looking forward to heading back to Ol' Plattsburgh..i guess it's just relaxing there, with no worries and just life.... see you in the North Country♥!.. Blaah!...

F'in Rad

2010-08-09T20:03:00.005-04:00

I need to get my life back.. ever since my plane landed at the JFK airport sunday morning, i've been really beside myself. I wish i could have stayed in San FRancisco. Being home makes me ready to head back to Plattsburgh.. If it wasn't for my nephew's birthday party i would have already been on a train northbound. Until we meet again hopefully next summer San Francisco but until then i need to shake this feeling of depression and take ahold of my life......

These Days....

2010-07-25T21:41:00.002-04:00

It's so funny or so inspiring that i've finally regained myself back... i'm not all that needy like i was before and i have this new confidence that just reminds me of when i was young... i'm loving life again and i can't wait to head to San Francisco on Saturday.. YAY thats going to be pretty kick ass..... i'm in love with myself again and i plan on taking this ride to the top.. so meet me there.HA!.....

Ghost.....

2010-07-08T13:04:00.003-04:00

so it's official i'm heading home on Monday.... i need to get my leg healed and i want to spend time with my mother before i'm stuck here in Plattsburgh for another three months....

ahhh this AC in the library feels sooo good... i'm hoping i can suck up as much cool air before heading back to my apartment that feels like a sauna sitting in an oven...

10 page paper report to be typed and finished so i can just sit back and read "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest", Ken Kesey is the man, man!..ha

Burial

2010-07-07T05:49:00.004-04:00

so i quit my job yesterday and i'm still recovering from my injury but life seems good at the moment. It's something about getting up at 5 in the morning to watch subterranean for some new music, which is making me feel like this summer might not be at all a waste. I got injured i hated my job and i felt my summer slipping away... So maybe i'll stick around Plattsburgh for awhile and then head my way home at the end of the month and hopefully find myself on the west coast by then... I think things may start to look up from here...sooo let's see how long this last....

Last Songs....

2010-06-27T18:23:00.005-04:00

Man life is amazing♥!!!.... i have that feeling once again... this is going to be good...

So last night we had another one of our house parties but this time Wilber got waaay too trashed.. not a good look man.. Panha was pissed and angrily told everyone to leave when i already told them they had to go.. ha what a night man... I'm so happy that my leg is healing i can move around without the crutches but i still keep them near just in case... I adore Tom♥! he is the raddest kid i know right now.... I haven't met any in a really really long time..So last night Tom brought back some awesome bud (the hairs and crystals are well defined with a strong skunky citrus mint scent)...YUMMIE♥! ha and today is his Birthday...Happy Birthday Kiddo♥!.. so basically thats all i've been doing while on disability which is lame but i have gotten a lot of work done and i plan on doing some more work....Back to real life tomorrow when i return to class and work... I wish i could have went to class though...blah!

Well Tom and I just finished smoking a bowl and i'm really liking this bud.. so good..... anyway, I truly appreciate the people that i've surrounded myself with lately... they make me happy or maybe it's just that i am happy...finally i'm happy

Spoke to my niece earlier this afternoon she's heading to camp tomorrow and hopefully she'll send me out a letter soon..We've been writing to each other... I'm going to make her a heart design bracelet... Panha has made me a work board to keep me busy while i've been confined to this house.. i've made three bracelets so far....i'm on a roll..ha!

i love my family and i adore my roommates♥!

Where are your wings?!.....

2010-06-24T10:23:00.009-04:00

<a href="http://plesiosaurs.bandcamp.com/track/lorelei-unmastered">Lorelei (unmastered) by Plesiosaurs</a>

I could listen to this song on heavy rotation<3... it's so beautiful. it just makes this three day disability a walk through the park. This isolation wont keep me down as long as this plays into my ears, i'm all goodzz....

So i'm not going to dwell so much on this whole thing because it has its perks.. i can relax, rest, read, write, find music to love.... just like my old life while not neglecting my studies...

I've been so i don't know.... just hating everything like my job. I feel this week is going to be pretty rad. hopefully when i go in on monday they'll give me some substantial work to complete for a change. ...........................................................................................................

I just rolled the prefect joint im so proud of myself.. today is starting off pretty chill already....

Double Entry...

2010-06-21T18:37:00.003-04:00

I was feeling a little better about life until the meeting i had with my boss and her boss this afternoon... I already knew it.. I'm an easy read of people, i swear sometimes... i think I'm just going to lay low for awhile and not be seen until I'm ready...you cloud my judgement...sometimes

Island, IS

2010-06-21T10:40:00.000-04:00

So I'm back at despair...sadly... i need to get away, just for awhile...

For Sebastian From A Friend......

2010-05-31T14:05:00.003-04:00

I want my mommie back...my sweet sweet mother. it's not the same, you're not the same and i'm not the same...like before.....

DARK RIFT......

2010-05-29T09:15:00.005-04:00

AHH! what was that about?!!.. Last week was entirely enriched with stress. It was as if that terrible energy was at a pull for my existences.not cool...

I'm really starting to consider that maybe after my last two semesters here as an undergrad maybe it's time for my own apartment. so I need to start looking for one. I can't live with MEAT eaters especially tons of them.. They eat meat EVERYDAY.. sooo grossss.. i know, i know i'm just being one of those vegans but the germs we share or more like it the germs they're sharing with me... makes me grossed out to wonder..i wish they were at least Vegetarians...ha my life.... well anyway i'm going to change the subject before i am forced to not eat because of this constant reminder...

blah blah blah i've been so stressed about everything, mom; being sick and me not being there, me; trying to start a my new life out here for awhile.. but i'm still so excited and last week just bombarded me with tiredness... hopefully this upcoming week will be better... i haven't been a real adult so....this working and going to school stuff has gotten the best of me.. i need to start taking those vitamins again and watching my diet... but tonite i've decided to hang out and hit up this cupcake contest.. 5 buck and all you can eat..lmao... i hope there's tons of vegan cupcakes to choose from...lol

my new playlist is coming along...niiicely

this air...

2010-04-14T15:42:00.004-04:00

i've made a fool of myself in front of you with my extemporaneous behavior and I entreat to justify my actions... When i proposed the notion of running for Mr. Plattsburgh, was not to offend you or ridicule you it was to galvanize. You're a hidden talent, sort of like that gem people have discussed of finding, and i wanted to share that and that I acknowledge your existence....

When the Rain comes...

2010-04-13T23:49:00.003-04:00

i miss you so much and i'm sorry for leaving you....get better so i can wrap my arms around you♥!!!!!......

I held on to the hopes of holding you....

2010-03-23T13:16:00.004-04:00

I told myself i'll leave you alone but after you insisted on accompanying me to the Downer last night i couldn't resist...ha! We talked all night about philosophy while we sipped on Dream Tea... i might have dreamt about you last night but maybe i forced myself to.. who knows but i think it was real cute of you to stop by today to ask how my dreams were.. so once again whyyyyy are you only 19?!!!!!!... just my luck lmao

Surprise Party...

2010-03-22T19:17:00.003-04:00

I totally bombed my poetry exam!.... so upsetting.. i should have reviewed over spring break but yet i didn't because I'm terrible so i think I'll be kissing that A goodbye... it's crunch time... 7 weeks left of the semester and i plan on kicking butt... I'm here for a reason and i want to stay here and get this part of my life done with!!!! so I'll be up studying tonight good thing i don't have class until 11 tomorrow if my professor doesn't cancel it again which i wish he would i could get so much work done if he does...

oooh and I'm in love again....... GROWN UPS♥!---- are my new favorite band........

An Opportunity.....(how appropriate)

2010-02-27T12:41:00.002-05:00

I don't get why you care so much when all it seems to me is that you just enjoy putting me down.. for once give me inspiration give me strength.. accept me for who i am and not who you think you want me to be.......

together in hopes....

2010-02-23T18:52:00.001-05:00

i feel like something big is about to happen..........

2010-02-23T15:33:00.005-05:00

I totally copped out of German Literature when my professor went on a rambling of injustice and directed the question to me about should we get involved and i responded with an "I don't know"... what i should have said was what types of involvement are you referring to.. Haiti is a touchy subject when you ask should we get involved i think we shouldn't forget about Haiti and their people because of the fact that they are still hungry and afraid but i don't understand the level of your involvement... i would personally love to travel over there and try to rebuild their cities, teach their children but i don't want to force my beliefs or model their government to be run like the government i've despised for as long as i can remember. when you asked an American if they want to get involved they usually want to change the structure of a country's government with theirs in mind. Which is a terrible idea because Haitian life is very different from American life and they have always lived their lives in this manner so its up to them to figure out what they want out of their government but with this comes rebels sooo this makes it extremely sticky. I believe maybe a little supervision but not to the point where we are calling all the shots but honestly i truly don't know......

nobody here to accept the golden reward....

2010-02-21T13:23:00.004-05:00

Ah!, i'm at a writers block i can't write i can't read i'm exhausted and i feel as if it's beginning to take a toll on my academic career... Maybe i should disappear from the spotlight just for awhile just until i get my writing and sleeping patterns back on track... ahh in other words i need to remember why i am here and stop focusing on things that shouldn't be my main concern.. haha i can't believe i've joined five different clubs on campus am i trying to find myself through this. so lost so lost where will my selves meet again... i thought this transit was going to be of opportunities and self realization but all i feel is extraversion and despair ... i don't think i'm heading to the TAWS meeting at 7 tonight.... i have soooo much homework to do today!!!!!!

This kid, Tom, who lives in the suite next door is pretty frickin groovie man, we walked to our backyard of woods sat on a frozen lake and smoked a spliff as we revealed our inner selves.. i think i've just found my best friend...

2010-02-08T17:57:00.004-05:00

Today was quite weird.. i tanked at the off guarded question my Poetry Professor asked, more or less because i woke up 15 mins before class started, so at the moment i was just there but my mind didn't come in until a half hour after the question was posed.... Ahh at least ANdrew Jerome makes me happy ♥.. even thou he gave me the wrong reading assignment the other day..hahaha

2010-02-07T18:13:00.006-05:00

so hanging around the coffee camp today i met an interesting fellow, Fred, who has 5 kids. He proceeding to tell me about his wife, who he's still madly in love with, and how they are in a rut right now. He was very friendly and i guess i have such an inviting face that draws people in and they want to stay around for awhile... who knows but yeah today was very interesting.. i got semi amount of homework done but not as much as i intended on getting done with my studies today.. now i'm back in my room from having dinner with Erik and Andrew which was pretty kick ass.. i'm loving school and the people that i've been coming in contact with in these past two weeks..... could i make this home?.....i don't know

2010-02-05T06:52:00.002-05:00

As i sit here with one shoe on and the other off, pondering on how people formulate their opinions on illusions, to be so judgemental.. Don't get me wrong i try not to make assumptions until i have the whole truth or in some cases the facts... My roommate informed me about a little discussion that another friend of ours had about vegan/vegetarians at lunch yesterday and i came up in this debate. she couldn't fathom the idea on why a 9 year old would want to be a vegetarian or a vegan, referring to me but what she doesn't know is what you see of me is not what you'll get, I'm a illusion, i say this because when a person meets me for the first time they believe that i am around 18 to 20 but usually people are considerate and hike up my age to 22.. so i guess our friend thinks I'm around the age of 17 and i thank her for that... i would answer the question of vegetarians/vegans simply, a lot of kids do not enjoy eating meat growing up or just in general, some children are grotesque by the thought and others are scarred when they understood the correlation of life and death or maybe their parents are vegans/vegetarians themselves. There are many reasons why children become Vegetarians/vegans at an early age but sadly i wasn't one of those children, Jenna... i was an adult when i made the decision and i am very happy with the choice i made.

2010-02-03T10:58:00.006-05:00

Ever feel as if you are lost within the space and time or even lost between the space and time of specks of snow flurries?

That's how i feel at the moment.. i know that's a strange way to look at it but if you understand what I'm getting at you'll understand my question. I've been a floater and i tend to forget why i am here... i know i truly want to become a better writer just like the greats before me and it seems as if i am on my way due to suffering from chronic despair which is essential to all writers... ha.. Jonathan Culler believes the Author's life is very important to a text of writing where as Roland Barthes believes that the author isn't important it's more about the readers interpretation of their style of writing and how the reader interprets it.

but i agree that "life never does more than imitate the book, and the book itself is only a tissue of signs," ........ i speak in riddles that only i can possibly decode but do i really want you to decode me?..... life is more like mystery well to me that is and it's what you make it or in Barthes case, the connection of space and time...... so am i the space and time?...lol

i wish i would have brought i ♥ huckabees dvd with me.. i need a little existentialism in my life right now

never meant.......

2010-01-31T22:50:00.002-05:00

i don't know why I always set myself up for this or feel bad by an outcome.. why can't people grow up.. like seriously grow up.. i will never know and i will never know why i feel in the first place, not in general but why do i feel when you get me upset.. why do i even care i don't even like you like that but for some strange reason i always feel nausea.... man man man man.. tomorrow will be better....

just needed to get that off my chest.....

Back in school

2010-01-26T17:52:00.002-05:00

SO I'm officially back in school and i find myself studying now at Plattsburgh State... yes my friends i finally went away to college...hahaha I'm loving it so far, my roommate is awesome, my suite mates are cool and my classes are amazing even thou i have quite a load on my hands... I'm taking 6 courses 5 which are English classes and 1 journalism class... So I'm going to be pretty busy this semester. umm what else is new... i just ordered a macbook pro and patiently awaiting its arrival.. YAY!!!! ummm i live an hour away from Montreal.. ummm I'm broke (well that's nothing new)... umm it just dawned on me that I've been out of school for 2 years... and i guess that is about it so far.. hopefully once i get my hands on my macbook i think you'll start hearing a lot from me plus i don't get the whole tumblr thing as yet well i get it but no one wants to follow any of my blogs hahaha i guess I'm not cool enough and plus my page never sticks to one topic except for my vegan recipe page other than that I'm all over the place but on here, blogspot, is where i can really let my hair down and say what ever i please and not care if the world is reading.. i guess... well i have tons and tons of material to read but I'll keep in touch more... haha

i thought i would call it home

2009-09-28T21:15:00.004-04:00

such a fool........ i need to figure a lot out.. getting to old for this.....

Life is Fucked sometimes................

2009-09-27T19:57:00.004-04:00

It just BAFFLES me on how some people and their immature mentally are.. get YOUR PRIORITIES right!... My best Friend since i was a little girl has flipped her script and she IS self destruction... i feel so bad for her children because they are the ones suffering under her madness... it's not they're fault for being here if you didn't want them you should have WRAPPED UP... i told her many many times before never burn your bridges especially the bridges that has helped and forgave you so many times... The days when you were roaming the streets selling yourself you're children were dressed, feed and sheltered due to some awesome people that had your back.... it's just a shame that families and friends are torn apart because of immature and spiteful behaviors... we're not here to put you DOWN we were only here TO HOLD YOU UP and WE WISH you knew that... i FUCKING LOVE YOU with all my heart you are still my SISTER but this is bullshit and those children need their MOMMIE/MOTHER not some smoke fiend.... our hearts go out for those poor babies<3!

Somethings in life…

2009-09-24T02:25:00.001-04:00

I love my new phone… iPhones are just kick ass man…

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so i think...

2009-09-11T12:45:00.001-04:00

i've been hit with the Beatles-mania.... this week i've bought 6 remasters... thanx Target

how about an update...

2009-08-24T18:52:00.002-04:00

things are pretty much the same on my side of the world but its just starting to get a little better i say.. i'm officially single and ready to mingle, well i've always been single according to Lookman...lol but i'm trying to get myself back into school hopefully SUNY New Paltz to finish up my Education Degree in the Spring... and pretty much I'm just a girl living in a big city who is trying to get out on the world, financially.. hahaha sounds like something MTV would write... blaaaah....lol

extremely sad...

2009-07-20T18:28:00.002-04:00

my niece and sister stumbled on an amazing creation, three baby kittens and their mother living in my neighbors basement window... for almost a week now I've been feeding them but the thing is my parents are against pets and i truly want to keep them but i can't so that's where you the reader come in and take these precious little creatures off my hands.... if you are interested I'll constantly check my blog to see if there is any takers but at the end of the week I'm going to have to take them in to the North Shore shelter because i can't see for these guys to be alone in the streets when they learn how to leave the nest.......

sounds sort of weird..

2009-07-16T18:56:00.001-04:00

but i miss that EERIE feeling of driving through and around Long Island... my bike has kept me close to home.. i miss those wild summer nights..........

it's been awhile since i've seen you smile....

2009-07-13T18:17:00.003-04:00

WORK was SOOOO MUCH FUN.. two weeks into camp and I'm starting to think this is going to be a fun summer... my niece is in Gymnastics Camp, one of the many camps I'm in charge of. We went to Hits and Hoops in Brooklyn today for our trip and I'm so proud of my sports camp because we only had a few incidents... yay 130 kids is nothing Stackz and I got this man....lmao

I'm so beat so I'm going to hit the showers and try to finish reading Franny and Zooey.......

SlingShot Dakota w/ Native and La Dispute

2009-06-22T07:25:00.000-04:00

was amazing.. there were two other bands that played with them The Snowing (some ex members of street smart cyclist<3!) and Wild Moccasins, who i hear are kick ass as well…

So i was really excited to see Native only because i’ve been harassing them through myspace and other online sites, but i know they love that i love them, for almost a year and i finally got my wish, they BLEW ME AWAY like i expected and if you guys do read this THANX SO MUCH FOR ALL THE HUGS especially all the warm hugs you gave me Bobby<3! i adore you kiddo…. i really do hahaha Next up was La Dispute which i knew nothing about and i just want to say Jordan is INSANE and i’m now a hopelessly devoted fan because their set was CRAZY!!!!..and Jordan is AWESOME<3!… Slingshot brought the house down like they always do that’s why i always try to make it out to their shows, it’s a guarantee PARTY<3!… Tis’ was great night in Brooklyn so i hope you guys come back REAL SOON and if anyone other than them are reading this you should definitely check all these incredible bands out..

Portugal. The Man

2009-06-18T08:56:00.003-04:00

Last night in Brooklyn at the SouthPaw, PTM was so amazing and these boys really know how to play their instruments, John Gourley wailing on the guitar as if he were Jimi Hendrix, while Zachary Carothers attempts spiral back bends on his bass.. haha these boys are groovie man... The drummer Jason Sechrist sort of remembered me, he didn't say hi but he stared as he walked by haha i know its been 3 long years since I've seen you guys and I've grown up and changed dramatically.. seriously I'm so dramatic.. i wanted to hang out after the show just to say hi but it's weird when you are alone at shows because of the awkwardness there after... Johnnie kept saying that this was their best show ever in New York but i think all of the Knitting Factory shows in the past were better.. Maybe because i had my crew there with me or maybe because there were so many DRUNK people spilling beer ALL OVER the place and then wining about how they're not going to buy another drink because they already spent 30 bucks on drinks and blah blah blah... But overall PORTUGAL. THE MAN are some Kickass Kats so if you like soul, indie, folk, blues, experimental, or just groovie music check them out then go see them live, they make everything go insane plus Johnnie's voice will make you want to live inside him. that is all......

i think...

2009-06-13T22:24:00.003-04:00

i really like my online friend Karlos.. well i've always had but i think finally he realizes that we sort of have a good thing here... you know a little understanding...lol

well anyway i've been a single mother for 14 hours now and its soooo much work.. i'm so tired plus i had to work this morning ahhhh up before 6 am on a saturday.... but whatever i love my niece and nephew and my sister Trice needs a break... well she better take me to Vegas with her next time and we'll leave the kids with uncle Lugie... i need a nap....

Colin Weaver ......

2009-06-13T01:05:00.005-04:00

is amazing he wrote me a song... YAY!!!! hahahahaha so i'm posting it on here for the world to hear and that i never lose it so check it out and tell me what you think....lol

Abbie Road

THANK YOU so much Colin i love it<3!

here's a happy post

2009-06-11T00:47:00.004-04:00

well this past weekend was amazing... Friday after work i headed out to Rhode Island to chill with Andrew while his parents were away.. it was pretty sweet.... i thought about hooking up with him when i drank so much wine on Saturday evening but I'm glad i didn't because it would have RUINED our friendship and he's so frickin awesome to be around.... we ate so much vegan food and shopped so much... he took me to romantic chill places which i enjoyed a lot because they were very spiritual.. and frankly i needed it.. i really needed this... the world has so much beauty and i shouldn't dwell so much on the ugly.... so Sunday i was going to head home early to check out that show Barrie was hosting (sorry i missed it lady<3!) but my homie John called and told me his friends were playing with the Appleseed cast in Providence... man i couldn't miss the Appleseed Cast nor John who by the way looked amazing.. wink wink...lol well i couldn't stay long since i have to catch the last bus out of Boston at 11 and we were an hour away in Providence.. overall it was the best weekend by far and i didn't really spend much on the trip and there so I'm definitely doing this again....so next stop Boston to chill with John<3!...

i'm well passed social drinking....

2009-06-04T13:20:00.002-04:00

I'm SOOOOOO STUPID....

how can you say you feel nothing after 4 years.. did you just wake up and simply say i feel nothing for you... you're so full of shit with all your "I love You"'s and "I'll be a fool to lose you" .. it's the truth and i meant everything i said last night in brooklyn on that bathroom floor......

..............i need to get my life back

you and me, so happy together<3!

2009-05-31T17:57:00.006-04:00

so excited i finally got my new bike and i absolutely adore it<3!.. i can't wait to ride to work tomorrow if my legs still work from my two hour ride around VS... i need to ride through the state park more often VS is so beautiful...

last night was pretty cool i had the car so i drove to Brooklyn to chill with the feminists and ended up running into my EX Rob..hahaha if we were still together how would my life be.. who knows but I'm glad that he found himself an AWESOME girl.. i really adore her.. i hope it wont be awkward if i start hanging around their apartment...lol well anyway the cool news is that awhile back when i went to check my cousin Osa who was playing bass for the younger lovers i had my eyes on this beautiful boy who i saw last night at the show.. he stumbled towards me and we engaged in a little convo i thought it was pretty awesome that he remembered seeing me so that's a good sign..lol long story short the homewreckers are kick ass and I'm going to check out his band this Wednesday in Brooklyn which is going to be fun since he's playing with my girls.. i think next weekend when i get back from Rhode Island I'm going to fix up my electric and play some tunes.. I'm ready to play....

FML

2009-05-26T21:04:00.003-04:00

ahhh my life once again is falling apart.. i wish i had someone to talk to or just hold me for awhile.... i wish i didn't invest so much time or assume so much because whenever you do you just end up looking like a fool in the end.. is it worth sending in all these stupid college applications all over again.. Ive missed so many deadlines and i don't think i can withstand another semester out.. maybe i should just give up on the higher education so i can show my parents that i am a failure and simply a waste of space... i just want to graduate and move on with my life..i want to feel like i amount to something or someone.....

i'll sleep when i'm dead.....

2009-05-17T07:11:00.003-04:00

i haven't slept since Saturday morning when Daniel left around 2 am hopefully that 6 hours will keep me up and not kill me by the end of tonight..lmao Dan Deacon was fucking kick ass.. i enjoyed dancing with random strangers until 330 in the morning and have random girls wanna kiss me during songs.. i think Dan Deacon made us his bitches tonight he made us all do OUTRAGES things some things our parents wouldn't approve of... hahaha

really enjoyed Ethiopian food with Lookman and spending one short hour with Tranette<3 and Richard<3!.. thanx to our Mother dearest.but it's all good thou she Lent us her car... so glad we had the car today well this morning because we would have never made it back here so quick.. I'm all cleaned up from peoples sweat and as well as my own.. now just trying to stay awake i have to leave for work in an hour... whatever today is where i make the big bucks plus I'm the BOSS.. so i do what i want.... damn right.. hahahaha

i just want to also send best wishes to my good friend Evan.. stay strong and you'll make it out this mess<3!

i know this is wrong...

2009-05-14T20:31:00.001-04:00

But i still love him so much<3!...

tomorrow is PAY DAY!!!! YAY!!!!!!!

it's funny...well sad

2009-05-12T01:52:00.001-04:00

how history repeats itself... please lord not again... i'm not ready for this....................

ahhh i wish...

2009-05-09T04:32:00.003-04:00

it would stop raining.. I'm so ready for the warm nights in Brooklyn like tonight.. but we've turned into the western world or yet Seattle with all this rain... So depressing.... well anyway this week hasn't been a total waste.worked a lot gotta make that cake in the words of Erwin?<3, my little crush i hope he calls..lol. So my cousin Osa was in town playing in her friends band The Younger Lovers with Brontez from Gravytrain.....i missed their set tonight but i did catch their set last Monday at Don Pedros and it was kick ass.... I'm in love with Brontez too bad we missed his DJ-ing gig at the Nowhere bar earlier today because me and the girls were prettie stoned and enjoying each others company.... this is why i need to work on my music and try to see if i could join someones band....that would be kick ass.. Or start that 2 piece with Daniel... It's like Daniel will be forever in love with me.. i feel so bad<3!.. but whatever it's life.. so yeah i met my new best friend Cristy Road and she is frickin groovey plus a published author.. she gave me one of her books titled, Indestructible, which looked svveet when i was looking through it so i can't wait to read it ... maybe I'll chill at home tomorrow and not go drinking to read this book and possibly get some work done.. nah that's what Sunday is for..lol.. well any way i got a long day today so i need some rest.. Tania is coming down tonight so its going to be a party yo... whoop whoop<3!

i feel accomplished worked all week yeah i'm up to three part time jobs and yet i can't afford rent...hahahah suckie life...lol
................it feels good having wheels<3!.

umm PLUG PLUG...

2009-05-03T15:37:00.002-04:00

leave me a comment and tell me what you think....lol

Wait for the summer...

2009-05-03T10:28:00.002-04:00

Yeasayer just makes me feel so good about myself.. truthfully..lol I enjoy waking up in the morning sticking my head out the door to see how much the world has changed from yesterday and from two days ago.. Spring is finally here and I'm excited YAY!.. i can't wait for my Bro to come home and the gang to move back for the summer finally i wont be as alone as i have been... I really enjoy my jobs at the Y haha right now I'm employed by three different people and one of them is myself.. Friday was awesome Luke and I was able to go on the Field trip with PS 33 plus the 8 of the children that were chosen to represent the Y to test out PS 85 newly designed by the students playground.. oooooo MY THE BEST DAY EVER.. we played laughed and laughed and played dude Luke and I looked as if we were left back waaaaaay to many times in elementary but it's all good we got paid for it.. what a treat.... Hey at least now i can keep my phone on, eat and go out drinking when i want to plus have a little money left over in my wallet.. Life is looking up blaaah.. alright just wanted to drop a line ENJOY MAY<3!

Stacy's last day..

2009-04-22T23:26:00.004-04:00

our last day to be best friends<3!..... so she's in Georgia right now and i miss her already.. she was a great roommate and one of my best friends.. it's rare to find people or even someone that completes you so well.. so i guess i need to start working on those frequent flyer miles then...lol.. but before she left the gang and i went out to IHOP for some brunch and watched a movie like old times and great times... I'm going to miss you and thank you so much for piercing my septum i love it....lol

Take me away...ooo i love you..

2009-04-21T12:27:00.002-04:00

420 was a success, had a little party and got hella lifted as planned.... i'm growing up and i know this...plus i'm enjoying every bit of it.. it blows that my roommate is moving to Georgia tomorrow .. i can't believe the days moved so fast but anywayz it was great and i'm going to miss you Stacy i'm glad we became best friends<3!... maybe tonight i'll pierce my septum before we head out to the bar to celebrate Alison's 21st BIRTHDAY.. about time my ID needs to be re-tired..YAY<3!..lol

Happy Birthday Alison<3!..........

i'm going to smoke a bowl in your honor<3!..lol

420

2009-04-19T20:56:00.001-04:00

YEAH<3!

Accomplished....

2009-04-16T18:49:00.009-04:00

so today i feel and know i got a lot done.. Stacy and I came home late last night chilling with the boys at Long Beach and later in Minneola.. I'm a little fond of Jay he had an Alice and wonderland bowl which was kick ass and a drum set my dream guy..nah lol well anyway had my first meeting at 11 with Greg about the COH event coming up on the 26th which went extremely smooth since we only have about 12 new clients so yay i don't have to fight about the credit card...SVVEET... hung out with the kids of the Y and my cool co workers.. it was good being around Luke being that we are out for vacation and i refused to work holiday camp.... Even thou i call Luke lame, Ghey and everything else insulting he's the coolest person ever and I'm not just saying that because we share the same birthday... it's all love from my end..lol.. then I had another meeting at 4 with Javon and that went well as well plus during the hour gap i had i was able to sit under the ramada to enjoy the book I'm reading by John Updike that i bought on Tuesday.....

It's Thursday and tomorrow is PAY DAY YAY!!!!....lol alright going to go chill and wait for my awesome roommate to come home.....

OVERALL GREAT DAY + GREAT WEATHER = HAPPINESS<3!

oooooo and HAPPY 60TH BIRTHDAY TO MY FATHER.... it's been 60 years yo....crazy

Mike Kinsella.....

2009-04-12T18:23:00.003-04:00

.......i wish i could marry you and live underneath your words<3!

today was a pretty alright i feel a little better than Friday so that's good.. went out for a walk to find that the whole world celebrates Easter... so yeah got a bottle of wine.... yummie<3 now I'm waiting for my roommate to show up 'cause we are about to have a ladies night<3!..... YAY!!!....lol

I'm not going anywhere tonight<3!

I'm Sick

2009-04-12T01:29:00.003-04:00

and very confused.. or should i say a little disorientated.. i feel there's something missing or somewhere found.. i don't know what it is but i do know i have to shake this funk and this cold...blahhh.. i want to live like Kafka on the shore but until then i remember when i wanted to be her<3!
Ode to Karen O.

We Are The Union

2009-04-10T13:07:00.003-04:00

... are pretty rad<3.... My first friday away from the world.. YAY<3!

I got a curse...

2009-04-03T08:31:00.002-04:00

"it melts every thing away, i think it's in my DNA"... aww i adore Hutch and Kathy.. i adore waking up in the early mornings just to watch their videos, yeah i know pretty sad right?..lol well who cares i wanted to run but its wet outside so why not watch Hutch and Kathy and the thermal videos to pump me up for today... since the Y fucked me over with my Check again.. 60 bucks short.. it's like every time i'm waiting on money with them they always fall through... i'll call Greg later blah..

So i guess i'm going to go with the Schwinn 700c Hybrid bike hopefully it'll work out for me and i'm going to send back the Combover bag i bought from Simple shoes and get the overload which is 15 bucks more.. why didn't i see that bag before blah well time is ticking, Monday the 20th will be here soon and i still need to get my bike equipment.. i hope it all works out... yay i'm going to buy my bike today!!!!!

"we were born to sin, WE WERE BORN TO SIN!"

twitter..

2009-04-02T09:32:00.003-04:00

I've made one and now what do i do with it...lol... Maybe i'll join some Earth and Vegan tweets so i can stay updated on my lifestyle since i lack Vegan and Earthy friends...lmao add me http://twitter.com/DearAbbieRoad

Well my Verizon contract is up in 4 days and it'll feel great to be a free agent, in baseball terms, speaking of baseball i think the Mets first game is tomorrow night or tonight.. YAY baseball season is on and i'm finally going to be able to watch something i enjoy and it will be somewhat consistent..... there are so many teams and i can't wait for the Mets to beat them and everyone else to BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF THE YANKEES.. sorry Melissa<3!....lol

Officer of Hearts...

2009-04-01T13:23:00.002-04:00

It's funny i've purchased so many CDs these past days or more precisely this month that i don't really actually listen to the CDs in entirety until i'm driving my mom's car... the reason for this is because i finally listened to the Handsome Furs's new album Face Control and its frickin rad<3!... i picked it up on faith since earlier that day i read an article on it and they got great reviews... i don't quite remember the magazine nor the newspaper i was reading but trust me it wasn't a copy of the AP, they suck ass...lol

Well Happy Fool's day.. i tried to get Daniel but instead i was the April Fool...lol.. i didn't even know that kid could think.. i underestimated him it seems.... here's to another day<3!

And I'll tell you for why...

2009-03-31T20:43:00.002-04:00

I got my old posts back yay!.. thanx to blogger for keeping my deleted or undeleted blog on file... i was upset before but i got over it.. so this is a lesson to everyone when you get over the things that go wrong and move on with your life sometimes you're able to get a second chance, to do it right.......

Always have faith and don't dwell to much on the mistakes learn from them....

Crawl back out of your sorry graves

2009-03-30T11:47:00.007-04:00

" i still feel the same way as i did when i was a kid"..... Ghost Mice<3!.... So this weekend was a blast, it wasn't short nor long but full of my own little excitement but i think the highlight of my weekend is when i made Falafels and Tahini dressing on Saturday.....
It was a lot of fun but tons of work since i didn't have a food processor... i wonder how the people in the Middle East do it but whatever i did it without one... lol
i want to thank Mamoun's for the inspiration and Vegan with A Vengeance for the guidance....lol oooh and i want to thank my lovely mother for having Brunch with me.. She really enjoyed them i think more than i did and trust me they were really really good...lol.. So Lugie maybe before you leave for or after you get back from the Solomon Islands I'll make you a batch<3!

So I'm sort of bored with the music on my ipod and I've been finding new tunes to replace the old ones with.. ahhh I'm running out of space and everything i find is getting better and better...lol... well maybe they'll make the cut for next month YAY!... see here in Abbie Road's Music Land every one's a winner<3!....lol

Last thing before i disappear into the abyss... Saturday was Earth hour to make everyone aware of climate change and thanx for everyone who participated and no thank you to my neighbor Kelly for telling me he was going to turn on all of his lights for that hour.. he's horrible to me..lol.. well anyway before i went astray it rained hail last night and boy was it intense... interesting right.... we need to protect and treat our mother better than we treat ourselves, she's all we got left<3!

It's my right to be a fucking baby..sometimes...

2009-03-27T08:58:00.003-04:00

ah true words spoken by the great Mike Kinsella... i adore thee... well this past week i've been trying to be productive getting up around 6:30 or 7 in the morning for my hour jog.. i need to get fitter if I'm going to be traveling to work by bicycle soon.. i can't wait. still pricing bikes, who would have known they cost so much especially if you want a good one... once i find the right bike, I'm leaning towards a Schwinn hybrid 700c, I'm going to be on the road... so hopefully in like 2 weeks i'll have my very own means of transportation...lol

well my homie Stacy has made up her mind and is moving to Georgia in three weeks which is depressing for me once again because she pretty much is the only friend i have left in long island... but whatever Georgia isn't all that far and next week she'll be moving in with me so thats going to be fun spending our last days as stoners<3!.. lol

Enjoy your day<3!

Riceboy sleeps...

2009-03-22T08:07:00.003-04:00

is the opening of my Spring day, i hope to keep this enthusiasm for the days to come. Today is CommunitY of Hope and I'm pretty excited about this which believe me i never am. All i do is bitch and moan about how things are never done partially because of my own not doing. I had my evaluation last Thursday and Greg believes that i need to step up and take control of this program because it is mine and i say Thank You to that, frickin finally. Now i will be able to shape it the way i want or where i feel people need to be educated on more and it is about our Mother, Mother Earth<3!. Our workshop today will be about Urban Gardens, how to use less and conserve more for the Adults and for the youth drawing what Spring means to them plus teach them the importance of recycling this will soon be their planet. So wish me Luck and thank you Riceboy Sleeps for bringing me "Happiness".............

Milk...

2009-03-18T14:13:00.002-04:00

So i finally saw the film and i may say it was very good... i learned about the "twinkie defense" from school as a youth but i didn't quite understand it.... sugar or sweets go better with milk.... play on logic..... well i already knew what to expect and and now i understand it a lot more.. James Franco and Sean Penn are an amazing duo.. well done boys, well done<3!....

So I've decided that I'm going to make a 'Things to do' list just like in the movie i bought the other day, "Things to do"..haha it was pretty funny and right where i am in life.... it's funny how things tend to find you at the right time in your life when you feel you've lost everything... i finally get the saying "sometimes you have to lose yourself to find yourself"....... interesting

celebrating my birthday at Disney....

2009-03-17T12:49:00.002-04:00

I've been thinking about having my birthday celebration at Disney world.. why not.. I'm not getting any younger so why not make this year a great one... i just need people who are serious about having a great time.. it's open to anyone wanting to come they just have to pay their own expenses so bring love ones or anyone that is looking just to get away for awhile.... i'm planning on arriving there on Friday to soak up the sun and leaving Orlando maybe on Tuesday so i can head to Gainesville for the fest that upcoming weekend, so if you want to spend two weeks with me in Florida you are welcome to come as of now I'll be venturing alone....haha yeah....

Get your head around it......

2009-03-16T12:19:00.003-04:00

i was awaken by the sound of modest mouse coming from my cellphone to confirm that the community of hope for this Sunday will go as planed. I was giving up on this event because it seemed as if i was the only one that wanted this program to prosper.... i figured if i want to give back to the community I'll do it my own way like a books no bomb or putting on a benefit sow in my backyard but i guess for now this will do and this coming June i am going to pass the torch to Husani<3!... good luck kiddo.....

Sunday bloody sunday...

2009-03-15T22:50:00.004-04:00

Today was quite time consuming.. i got an early start this morning headed out with the moms to queens so i could spend my day in the city.. hit up Virgin and spent $120 dollars on 9 CDS and 4 DVDs.. haha yeah i went crazy....lol i didn't get all the CDs that were on my list but i was able to tackle 3.. not bad so YAY!....

I thought it was pretty cool to find my cousin's CD being sold there.. if i didn't already own it i would have gotten one of the copies... everyone check out New Bloods.. they are Kick ass and I'm not saying that because Osa is my cousin I'm just stating the truth...

All about Lily Chou-Chou

2009-03-14T19:31:00.007-04:00

is my favorite movie at the moment.. i've been searching the web for this "Ether" that they've been referring to.....

thank you Lugie<3!.......

Virgo.....

2009-03-14T00:28:00.003-04:00

..............i wonder if your horoscope read that I'm leaving you and this time its for good..........................

Dumb Luck.....

2009-03-05T22:38:00.003-05:00

I'm so tired of cleaning... Lugie and his friend Mike are going to be here for a week and I'm so excited.... i think it's going to be pretty sweet having another brother for awhile....

so this week has been, i don't know but I'm going to say a little of life changing and prioritizing... Stacy and i were planning to get a place in Brooklyn with Alison and her friend in May but the thing is I'm going to have to find another job on top of being a full time student so its going to be tough..blaah so if that falls through we might just look for an affordable place out here on the Island hopefully in rockville centre or Lynbrook somewhere close to the city, close to school and not to damn expensive...lol

Off to bed i had a crazy week and i want to thank Stacy and the Ganjah we smoked for showing me a great time...

peace

open close open....

2009-03-05T02:59:00.003-05:00

maybe you're right maybe i have no fucking clue of what I'm talking about but i do know one thing i want to live more love more laugh more if its with or without you.. I'll be here to pull you out of a rout and all but you need to help me out a little.. i don't know if I'm coming or I'm going the only thing i know is that I'm growing and sometimes i believe we are growing apart.... so we can either make the best of it or just not.... life is a funny thing..................

ummmm Maps & Atlases...lol

2009-03-04T12:10:00.005-05:00

So it was really good seeing my boy Dave again..i thought he forgot about me but when he texted to see if i was coming out to chill i felt like YAAAAY.. he didn't forget me..lol... so anyways Stacy and i went down there hung out with him we didn't go to his friend Dave's apartment which was not to far from Southpaw but after the first time i hung out with him and his friends at his friend Dave's apartment i felt like i was being watched in a way but not really i was just paranoid i guess because it was my first time hanging with a ton of boys that i didn't really know...any one say gang bang...lol..nah but no worries thou it didn't go down like that..I'm a classy person at times...lol well i adore this kid DAVE<3!....i wish you didn't live in Chicago and i in new york...boooohooooo...lol....he's so funny<3!

OOOo and as Stacy and i were running through the streets of Brooklyn trying to catch out train i lost my precious hat, it pretty much disappeared when we went back to look for it it was non existent ... so sad it matched my plugs....lol

let's just LOVE HARD<3!...LMFAO

buried myself alive....

2009-03-03T02:59:00.003-05:00

ahh i remember when i was young when i was alive, vibrant.. it's funny how we grow out of things we thought would last with us forever... what happened.. why didn't we find each other.. do you believe we will ever find it... i wish our young selves met before the war but hopefully we'll meet in the end.. my darling Berthelomew

hahahaha.. i was so ghey<3!... maybe we do have to lose ourselves in order to find ourselves<3...........................

Look Down....

2009-03-02T18:15:00.000-05:00

You could build a sunset with a pile of sticks and break my heart with it....... i think the best line ever<3!... Algernon is one of my favorite bands at the moment..... i'm going to take it all this time...

YAY for Snow Days<3!........ leaving us with a bang<3!.............

such a fool....

2009-03-01T14:55:00.000-05:00

I've just deleted my blog on accident...haha so sad my whole life is gone in a flash.. interesting.. it really makes you think.. well i guess it's time for a change you know out with the old and in with the new.. today is going to be a new day<3!....embrace it.....

Bob Marley was right if you inject the world with music this world would be a peaceful place...right on<3!.... there is so much music in the world and i want to taste and feel every last minute of it...Algernon Cadwallader takes over my life.... you could build a sunset out of sticks and break my heart with it....

Bob Marley

2009-03-01T14:34:00.001-05:00

was right if you inject the world with music this world would be a peaceful place...right on<3!.... there is so much music in the world and i want to taste and feel every last minute of them.. Algernon Cadwallader takes over my life... you could build a sunset out of sticks and break my heart with it.................

2009-03-01T14:34:00.000-05:00

I keep my poems underneath my pillow.....

2009-03-01T00:34:00.000-05:00

Today was a pretty chill day even thou i didn't go to the City.. i think I've been a bitch lately to my mother and i need to nip that in the butt.. she's my best friend<3!...

I need to work on getting my applications out for school... i was checking for colleges that offer ASL as a degree.. well in a Masters but all i see are B.Ss... interesting maybe i should just graduate with a B.S in English and hopefully something will pop up..blah

Luke believes i should be a music journalist since thats the only thing i ever talk about.. haha yeah that would be a sweet gig but it would take the fun out writing about music.. my inspiration only comes to life when there are sweet sounds playing out of my speakers so i guess I'll just stick to blogging them..lmao

boy problems= kick ASS<3! ...........it's overwhelming me<3!...............................

TOKYO POLICE CLUB<3!

2009-02-26T11:41:00.000-05:00

owns my heart.. i went to see them last night with my homeboy Luke at Webster and it was a kick ass show.... we danced the night away under the disco ball and their cover of The Clash "Train in Vain(Stand by Me) was fucking amazing... it was just simply fucking amazing!!!.. if you know me you know how much i love the clash especially Joe Strummer so it brought a smile from ear to ear and a tear to my eyes.. great fucking job Tokyo Police Club, Born Ruffians and Harlem Shakes for making my night<3!

2 Piece Fest 2!!!!!!

2009-02-23T20:44:00.000-05:00

So the trip to Philly was a success and i had so much fun... Slingshot Dakota are my new best friends and best friends are still my friends plus Peter and Craig own at life<3!.. got to to chill with awesome peeps and i wouldn't mind going out there again but this time to chill with the kids that live in Pi Lam especially Cathy<3!......

So Daniel and I have been fighting for almost a week now and its been so bad that we stopped using our normal voices.. i think yesterday's call push me over the edge and i had to just hang up on the kid... don't come between me and the fest...lol well whatever if we can't make it together as boyfriend and girlfriend i still want to make it as a 2 piece band...that's all i want is to make music with him...blah

Well in other news i want to thank Tania for spending the weekend with me and heading out to Philly with me.. met some cool and interesting people in Philly and on the way home coming from Philly.. haha Tom from Jersey owns my heart at the moment i just have a feeling that I'm going to find out he's only 19.. i think i could go to jail for this...lol

YAAAAWN... I'm so tired so i guess i'll call it a night and if anyone is into 2 piece bands or just great music check out these awesome bands and then thank me later....lol

1)Peter and Craig (Philly)
2)Trophy Wife
3)Slingshot Dakota<3! (BK<3!/PA)
4)Best Friends (Philly)
5)Ingrid (DC)
6)Deer Friends (NJ)
7)Japanther<3!(NYC<3!)
8)1994!<3!
9)Shellshag(NYC<3!)
10)DeerGear (DE)
11)Reading Rainbow<3!
12)The Book Slave
13)Hulk Smash
14)Color Change (CT)
15)Hoop Dreamz (TX)

there were 22 bands that played yesterday but these are the ones i brought back home with me<3!....not bad 15 out of 22 great job...until next year

I promise we'll swing for the fences...

2009-02-21T06:08:00.000-05:00

........makes me feel so strangely but in a good way.. Look Mexico has amazed me with their old stuff i heard a couple of their new stuff but i think This is Animal music is by far a well put together CD... his voice has finally settled

well today i had a doctors appt which was back in my heart of Brooklyn.. haha met up with Tania and i think I'm over Red Bamboo... surprising...lol yeah whatever

I'm so glad i didn't pass out like the rest of the guys... Tony, Stacy and Tania are passed out downstairs and I'm wide awake.. it makes no sense for me to go to sleep now when i will be getting up in the next hour... so yeah i got to talk to my KARLos<3!.. i adore that kid.. He sent me a hug and kiss through Tania which i thought was extremely sweet....i can't wait until we get our matching t-shirts hahahaha it's like we are the same person but not....lol

this is going to be a sweet day.. gotta stay awake.... time to take on the big city..rawr wish me luck!!!

i've never felt this pain before and it feels WONDERFUL.....

2009-02-20T08:39:00.000-05:00

haha Boy Problems was an amazing band just like Quantice too bad it had to end so quick but it felt wonderful when they were around... awwww why do all the great things come to an end but all the horrible things keeps up it's pace... we will never know...

so today i had an amazing run, i finished my 3 laps strong so i think next week I'm going to add an extra lap just to keep me wanting more.. I'm getting fitter by the day and I'm loving every bit of it so my next goal is to be consistent so i can shed these unwanted pounds and keep if off for good.... you only need three goals in life to say you've had a fun time..
by....
1) staying Healthy
2) consume as much knowledge
3) practice affection

and so far I'm two out for three.......................

Tania is coming over for the weekend and Sunday we'll be in Philly.. i got money in the bank so this is going to be "FUN FUN FUN" in the words of Noah and that whale of his....lol

Thursday Antics....

2009-02-19T17:47:00.000-05:00

Today i got up 30 minutes before i had to be in work.. i hate getting up so early especially when i was so tired at 8 pm and then restless at midnight... i need a better sleeping pattern or something.... i can't win with myself. In-house isn't bad and i really enjoyed swimming today unlike Tuesday i got sort of a work out which is what i intended on getting... my body is coming along I've been trying to re build my body, I've been watching what I've been consuming and exercising daily with my 5 mile runs in the mornings... exciting! thanx to my ipod i can run all day...well not all day just most of the day.....lol

Just got home from exchanging the wine i bought earlier because it wasn't vegan friendly and i thought i would take a chance but i should have just went with the yellowtail and called it a night. well whatever i enjoyed my little walk plus i got to scare the living SHIT out of one of my kids from work that i saw in Waldbaums he was so surprised and so i guess he's right i am a little crazy... sorry Jahmani... hahaha I'll see you Monday kiddo..lol

up and out..

2009-02-17T07:35:00.000-05:00

Today i'll be working at the Y in-house since school is out this week ahhhh it's holiday camp season.. i have to go swimming today and i'm actually looking forward to sticking my head in the water....lol.. well i'm up early and if i don't leave now i'm going to be late.. out by 12 and a meeting at 1 ahhh i hope this doesn't turn into a looooong daay....

i wish i could get this GPS to work...blaaahh....lol